Thinking(:

2011-11-25T10:35:00.003+08:00

another month without blogging :(

failed big time to say i will update almost everyday!

i shall take this sentence back! thankyou! :X

alright` one month passed`

i have spent a total of $800 for my root canal treatment.

because i went for the 2nd time for my freaking tooth! >:(

arhh! i have been spending so much this month of Nov!

calculated all` i have almost spent $2k. wtf?!

well` part of it, it's for school and my stupid tooth! >:(

Oh! another 30days to Christmas!!

cant wait for it because i will be taking my leave(:

gonna enjoy starting from 23 december to next year 2 Jan! :D

woohoo! happy max! having christmas chalet with friends`

meeting cliques and my bintan trip!!! ^^

im going to start my bridging course on the 18 december!

why must it be a Sunday! it's from 9am-6pm! goodness!

but nevertheless` im looking forward (:

3 Jan` offically start my HRM course(:

and i have to put in hardwork until September 2012!

i hope i can one time pass without re-taking any of the subjects!

this will be my christmas, new year and birthday wish! :D

2011-10-07T11:20:00.003+08:00

mygoodness! im heading to dental clinic after work!

well` almost of us is afraid when it comes to dental

or denist because since young` they seems so scary!

my tooth is aching badly :(

the pain is torturing!

i might do a root canal treatment and im so afraid

even though i did it once before :(

surely`the pain will be even more torturing
after the treatment or whatsoever going to be done!

argh` im so nervous and afraid!

i hate denist/dental but i doesnt have a choice:(

going to force myself to visit the denist every twice a year!

YES` every twice a year! damn it!

i do remember clearly that` just 2-3 months ago

i went to visit the denist for my fillings and

i spent around $400! and now` i need to spend more!

because root canal treatment is so freaking expensive!

gosh` my pocket is going to have a big big hole! :'(

and im going to start paying my school fees`

insurance` phone bill`internet bill etc`

EVEN BIGGER HOLE IN MY POCKET!

mygod` earn so little is not enough! :(

there's so many things that i need to pay

and the stupid ______ is going up up up! >:(

i have to restrict myself for shopping!

i need to save save save save save!

ohya` i went for an interview yesterday after my work

i was looking for a part time evening job!

well` i got cheated from the pay!

the agent told me that they are paying $9/hour but

in fact` they are actually paying $7/hour! freak!

wasted my time to go over! Nb! >:(

whatever it is now` i shall stop looking for extra evening job` i shall enjoy myself after work before i start studying`(:

alright! shall end entry now(:

goodbye peeps!
great day ahead :D

2011-09-26T09:20:00.004+08:00

03 September 2011 (: One Year Anniversary!

its been a year since we have been together(;

going through the thick and thin`rough and smooth journey!

im glad that we have made it through(:

althought there's a lot of arugement but each time`

it just make us even closer and understand each other better(:

i really love this sweetie boy of mine! <3

well`time files! is going to October now!

how i wish time could slow down a little`

well well`it will never come true :( haha!

2 days ago` i went to kaplan to submit the documents

and made payment! woohoo` finally paperwork all done!

seriously cant wait to study again! and i promised to myself

that i will put in more effort and want it one time pass!

i dont want to waste anymore money and time!

school starting on the 3 Jan! -.-'

and it reminds me of primary and secondary school days! :(

shall end my entry here! getting back to work!

bye peers! <3

imissmyboysomuch! :'(

2011-08-19T14:54:00.005+08:00

with my botak boy! <3

2011-06-22T09:06:00.003+08:00

early in the morning`im here to blog(:
totally have nothing to do at work! :(
im bored bored bored bored bored!
boyf is going to book out tomorrow! yayy!
elated :D im sure im going to force him
to send me to work! wahahah!
okay` end of entry! im too tired and shag to continue!
sorry people! bye and have a nice day ahead! :D

2011-06-15T11:00:00.001+08:00

im sorry once again for not updating almost a month!
which i had made a promise to do so! im sorry ;(
but now` i can blog whenever i want because`
i have nothing to do when working so i can blog often(:

one month had passed in one blink`
and im doing pretty fine with work(:
well` maybe that's because it's not the busy period yet ;(
im waiting waiting waiting(;
i want learn more things in work so that next time`
im able to handle it myself without asking questions!

its been 10 days since i last seen boyf due to his field camp!
;( im missing him so badly! but well` he's going to book out today and booking in again on sunday! feeling elated ^^ but we can only have more time with each other on weekends because i need to work! well` it's weekdays and i have to work(:

there's no much happening nowadays because`
my daily route is work`home`work`home`work`home`
soon` i will become a big fat lady due to no exercising! haha!
well` i had transferred myself to gleneagles hospital for checkup!
im currently awaiting for my report to be out! scary~
the doctor said that im super lack of blood -.-'
alamak` i cant donate my blood to people but people`
i need your blood instead? hahah! just kidding!
i dont need anybody blood yet! LOL!

alright` there's nothing more for me to continue now`
friends out there` take care alright!
health is really very important(: dont neglect it! (:
stay tune(: goodbye!

2011-05-18T01:25:00.008+08:00

rotting' rotting and rotted for almost 6 months!
finally' im back to blog about my life again(: haha!
this few months was rather happening for me!
anyway`whatever im going to say over here will be in point form(:

well` First Topic of the day - WORK LIFE!

Resigned SK-II as a Beauty Consultant on January due to health issue

Rested for almost 2 months and started working as a Recruitment Consultant at Success Human Resource Centre on March

Tendered resignation letter on May as a Recruitment Consultant. The reason that made me leave was because of the management problem and i simply just dont want to continue working for the boss due to the bad side i have seen on her and since then, i told myself 'why should i help her earn money since she is so ______' >:/

Interviewed for jobs etc and i found a position that im quite into it because of the job scope(: position is Operation Assistant but it's like a personal assistant cum admin cum receptionist :D

Went for the 1st and 2nd round of interview and i thought that i had failed the 2nd round because the ang mo boss of the company spoke too fast that i was unable to catch what he's trying to say :( the person asked me to wait for result :(

Nevertheless' they did reference check on me and i have to thanks JINHUI and JASMINE for helping(: and of course, one of my SK-II colleague -GINA (:

They called and want to employ me! i was so shocked and elated! THANKS TO THE LADIES! ^^

Will be starting work next monday 23 May(:

i miss my working colleagues in SK-II especially Mandy & Gina! :'(
a new environment in a office at Success Human Resource, i do came to know quite a number of nice colleagues! :( well` surely we will still be contacting one another i suppose(:

Second Topic- PERSONAL LIFE + HEALTH + WEALTH

Month of May is my 8th months with Love(:

Love(: is in army since March! and sometimes, im dead bored without him :(

Applied Diploma in Human Resource Management at Kaplan! Hope application will be successful (:

Currently im still resting and relaxing of life before 23 May(:

Suppose to have appointment on the 25 May-SGH- i dont have any intention to go anymore because until now, there's still no diagnosis for my condition? But there's one thing i can confirmed now is that, im feeling much better compared to few months ago(:

Speaking of wealth, IM BROKE BROKE BROKE! HUANG YUQING IS BROKE NOW! :(

and seriously there's a course that i need to attend badly'
which is anger management! Please contact me if you do come across of such courses and it will be much appreciated (: thankyou!

i will try to update twice / thrice a week!
simply because i miss blogging :(
Okay! that's a promise i've made (: stay tune :D
goodnight my friends (:

Anyway` Happy Birthday to Stevanius & Huiqun! (:
Happy Belated Birthday to Chu Guan! (:

^^ Love!

2010-12-15T03:31:00.004+08:00

hi there(: i think my blog is dying so im back here to save it !
haha! alright` im seriously lazy to post photos over here`
im sorry because i mentioned that i will upload in the next entry
and i didnt ` hereby apologize for my laziness! Sorry! but well there's facebook`so ya` you can have a look over there if you want to (:

in about two weeks time` it's going to end the year 2010
i hope next year 2011 will be a smooth year for me! (:
and of course` my friends and family! (:
going to end of month and year` im running out of cash! :(
and there's birthdays and christmas celebration/gifts exchange! humph!! money money money` money is the one that will never be enough! :( and im like a dog working for the sake of money `
since the day i started working in a MLM company! sighh`
Okay! dont wish to reveal the past anymore so hack care!
im working perfectly fine in SK-II although sometimes there's weird customers taking you to spare time/scold you because they feel like it >:( im still pretty fine with the job just that pretty not fine with ____ for a little bit ! HAHAH!

alright` anyway i do have a boyfriend for 4 months`
and i bet some of you will be shock to see this!
i typed in this entry is because`
some of you tend to be shock to hear that i have a boyfriend -.-'

going to head to KK Hospital in hours time for checkup`
whereas my body condition couldnt wait until 14 February'2011
it had worsen i think ? >:( the pain couldnt let me wait anymore!!! :'(

Okay! ending my entry here!
going to have less than 3 hours of sleep!
well` shall call it a nap then! LOL
goodnight peeps! (:

2010-10-20T02:14:00.003+08:00

apologised for not updating my blog for months!
less entertainment but more work! (:
seriously speaking` im happy and enjoying my current job- SK-II
even though its quite tiring :/ Okay! i mean sometimes :)
im in L.O.V.E with what i am and have now! (:
i have neglected all my friends! i know! :(
im sorry`my friends! especially to my clique and freshkon's babes!
alright`i shall wait for my schedule to be out for Nov'10
and plan the meetups with the ladies! :D
humph`24 hours a day simply not enough for me!
oh well` it applies to everyone out there! :/ hahah!

if i remember clearly` i mentioned that i might want
to return back to MLM which in another words` FLP!
like handling SK-II and this side line at the same time`
but what i found out is that` i couldnt handle it whereas
it's really exhausting for me to balance two side and so`
i decided to put more focus and concentration in SK-II because
i totally have no more confidence and motivation to continue MLM`
due to bad experiences` i still cant leave the past behind me!
i know i shall live in the present tense but going back to work is exactly letting me to think of all the past tense which i dont want it`
well` i think i have let daniel down again` by giving him the hope that
im going back to restart all over again with him but ya` i gave up!
im sorry daniel` just hope everything goes well on you (:
I CAN BE YOUR CUSTOMER! (:

Okay! im going to end it here!
update again when im free!
and next entry will come with photos!
goodbye! (:

2010-08-27T11:09:00.003+08:00

had a fun and enjoyable trip to kukup!
and of course` it was relaxing !
i thought it will be hell bored for me
whereas im not very close with all of them!
and yes`i mean ALL ! but i was wrong`
they are all nice`funny and great to be with! (:

had gathering with freshkon's babes yesterday!
and glad that everyone is doing fine ! (:
enjoyed myself whenever im with them!
we always have so much things to chat about`haha!
and congrats tiffany that she passed her exams! (:
we had our dinner at timbre -near plaza singapura`
had a bad experience there` i really dislike the service !
i swear i wont want to go there anymore
although their food i give a thumbs up ! well`maybe
i will head to others outlet instead of going back there! humph.

Okayy` im going to meet jinhui later for singing session`
and going to head to tampines for balling session after that`
ohya` i signed another 9 months contract with SK-II to make it a year !
it's really a good environment to work at (:
wellwell` shall end it here!
i want to catch some show and off for preparation ! bye! ^^

2010-08-14T03:39:00.004+08:00

it soon going to be a month since i last blogged !
im sorry that it took me so long to blog again`
like what i had mentioned in the previous entry`
i have been busy with my work from the start of the month`
and yes` i have not been playing basketball for almost 3months !
okayy` i shall start fixing my organiser and plan a date out for it !
but` in few hours time` im going to have morning jog !
finally`im going to exercise after so long ! (:

well` im no longer working at the airport because the promotion had ended and im back to domestic counter`there's good and bad but well` i doesnt want to make any comparison whereas the job isnt bad though (: this week` i had attended a 4 days training with SK-II`and i found out that` i pretty love the job and environment
although sometimes there's a need to attend those nasty customers etc` i feel glad and lucky that` i joined MLM last time because i really had a great experience there ! which i can really handle those nasty customers ? haha!
well` there's still a long way to go for me (:
and i really enjoy working with great people in SK-II ^^
instead of those aunties in the airport` -.-'
but anyway` i still meet a few great people in the airport ! ^^

wellwell` recently life has been good but exhausting !
because i couldnt fall asleep at night which i dont know why ?!
im wondering if my insomnia is back ?! >:/
whatever it is` im pretty fine with my life although it is quite lifeless (:
but in this 3 months`i had met all great people !
like all the freshkon babes` SK-II promoters` and some friends i had came across in the airport (: `nevertheless` i miss my favorite clique!
JINHUI`YOUSE ! i miss the both of you ! :(
meet up soon okayokayokay ?! (:

there's so much things i want to say but i dont know
where should i start` so ya` nevermind :(
im contented with what i have now even though im lifeless`
do not complain but appreciate it (:

p.s. it's raining now and i hope it doesnt rain or stop
raining at the time when i want to go jogging ! (:
shall stay positive on it ! ^^

2010-07-16T23:05:00.003+08:00

yesterday i enjoyed myself with the ladies !
vanessa`tiffany`ceceila`jiaxuan and audrey`
for shopping` dinner and singing session ! :)
headed off to zhongxian's bbq party at 9pm !
and its been two months since i last saw all of them !
because i have not been balling since then :(
have been busy with work`facial etc !
really miss the balling session so badly !
reasons behind is because`firstly- i really miss balling !
secondly- i miss chatting with them` okay`i mean some !
thirdly- i have gained weight ! :(
and muscles is soon going to become fats ! :( saddening
fourthly- because exercising is healthy! ^^
Okay` be back on court during mid of september !
whereas i will be less busy than now ! :)

my mind and heart felt so at ease when i was watching
the sunrise today` it's really beautiful !
if i have the time someday` i will want to see it again ! :)
while watching` there is things that flowing through my mind`
which is what do i really want in life etc`
and of course` i do know the answer behind this question !
just that i have to get rid the 'big rocks' out of my way
which is emotional and love life` haha!
career = important = priority = earning big bucks = future ! ^^

MORE PHOTOS ON FACKBOOK !

2010-07-13T00:11:00.004+08:00

well` every time when im down to something`
i will start to rant here and there`
and confusion comes`but after a few hours
of relaxing my mind and all`
i will find that it's actually worth nothing at all`
but bring down the values of myself ! haha`
thanks for the concern shown !
especially vanessa and audrey ! :)

i realised that i have been mentioning that
i will upload photos at the next entry but`
i always never do so` well` please forgive me about it !
because i always seems so lazy to do so ! haha!
next entry` i promise ! okayy ?! ^^

2010-07-07T23:27:00.002+08:00

Medical Leave for today and tomorrow !
will be returning to work on friday !
and the following day is my off day which is saturday ! :)
felt so exhausted today !
doesnt have enough sleep ! even though`
i had slept through half of my day ! well` maybe no matter how long
i sleep`it doesnt seems to be enough for me` so ya`
shall stop complaining on it ! haha

other than seeing doctor today`
went over to bukit panjang plaza to shop at daiso which is newly opened`it's so convenience for me and even better because i can get my materials that is needed for facial in less than 15 minutes ! :)
nevertheless` i always spend more than i expected over there !
but i always having the second thoughts of getting things that i want`
because i dont want to waste my money even though it's just $2 per item`seeing them not being used is totally occupying my spaces to put other stuff of mine and i will feel so irritated by it`haha!

im currently preparing for the facial case tomorrow !
and there's documents that i need to get done with !
have to track back all the useful information that i had thrown away !
it's going to spend me quite sometime to do it ! >:/
but now` im going to relax my mind first`
so thats why im here blogging ! hahah !
jiayou for my case tomorrow ! believe is the key to every door of success ! yes`im believing this ! ^^

mist on my mind has been cleared !
focusing and concentrating more on the important stuff
should be my priority` which i mean` my career path ! :)
im working hard towards it ! there's no more second chances !
and i dont allow myself to fail this time ! not again !
yuqing` jiayou ! :)

2010-07-05T21:31:00.006+08:00

reached home early today !
thanks audrey and her boyfriend for the ride home !
if not`i wont be blogging at this hour ! haha`
anyway` fever had gone down to 37.5 degrees`
thanks to the people who had shown concern towards me`
especially Vanessa Hu ! thanks for the days of concern (:
well`but headache is still killing me ! :(
and i have decided to get MC on thursday and maybe on friday too ?!
because i have things that need to be done !
priority comes first ! and at the same time` i need more rest !

recently` i had went for tarot reading !
well` i dont know what i can say because`
now i dont know if i should believe it ?!
anyway` fyi` everything is positive` there's no negative at all !
and of course` towards the positive of my career path`
i will surely listen to it because everything is going to be a smooth journey ahead of me (: but maybe not love life ? :/
im feeling so sick and tired of it ?!
it was being mentioned that there's possibility but lack of communication ?! well` im not the one who doesnt want to communicate`so no matter how much i want to communicate is still useless ?

somehow somewhat`i think you had sensed something`
ccumf = i dont want ?!
i never ask you to read between the lines or maybe you are`
and thats why` i sensed the avoiding from you`
im afraid that i might lose a friend like you` thats why im keeping quiet
and let you feel` but i think you had somewhat felt it and so
you are avoiding ? well` it's all guesses from me`who knows ?
maybe i am right ? humph..
shall see if you remember the things on this coming wednesday ! :/

sorry people` im not going to upload any pictures for this entry`
because im feeling super exhausted` it's time for me to get to bed
even though im working 2pm tomorrow ! haha!
goodnight peeps ! (:
time checked : 10.37PM !

2010-06-27T01:19:00.002+08:00

i dont have to wake up in few hours time to attend work !
because` it's my off day ! finally !
wellwell` it's 27th june now !
will be celebrating jinhui's advance birthday and qinbao's
last day of freedom before he go to the army the following day!
we are going to have picnic !
hoping the weather to be fine fine fine !! ^^

work is really exhausting !
and i seriously just cant stand those bitchy aunties !
Okay` nevermind` i shall not mention about it anymore since
their gossiping and bitching is like forever or maybe never ending ?!
ohya` bus 966 always made me wait more than half an hour !
which end up reaching home at 12am !
and then` have to be awake at 1030am ! i find it so-no-life !! >:(
but no choice` i have to work ?! if not` i really dont know what
i can do other than working ?! friends is all busy with their
school`projects`cca`work and whats not` boyf ! :/
and so` im working 6 days in a week ! one rest day !
hope they can meet me up during the particular one day ! HAHA!
but timing always doesnt seems to match ! :(
alright` whatever it is` im going to meet them tomorrow !
jinhui`youse ! lets enjoy ourselves to the fullest ! ^^

anyway` i had made up my decision of returning back to FLP !
and yes` im returning back to the old track of mine
but in a very different way of doing compared to last time !
and you're the one who motivates me to return although
you dont know you are ! haha! and yes`
it's time that i should not talk to you for a moment`
because i think you cant be disturbed as you need
to focus and concentrate as it's going to end of month now`
you may not read this entry but whatever it is`
good luck and jiayou ! :)
okayy` CCUMF ! i have to keep reminding myself !
Laughs.

next entry` pictures will be uploaded !! ^^

2010-06-23T23:47:00.002+08:00

it's time to post some entry!
started working as beauty consultant at SK-II
just a week ago` and currently im working at
singapore changi airport terminal 3 !
working environment is not bad` i like but
i just couldnt stand those bitchy aunties !
non-stop gossiping and bitching here and there !
nevermind`i will just do the things im supposed to do and
whatever you`aunties want to say` go ahead !
you people just cant be bothered !
Okay` i shall not let this to disturb my emotional ! >:)
and i shall leave them as far as possible ! Laughs.

for additional information` i will be station at airport for 6weeks !
until 2 august ! and then` i will be back to domestic counter ! :)
and yes` for now` i prefer to station at domestic counter because
i just have to promote SK-II products ! but at airport`i have to
promote other brands too ! and whats not` perfume !?!
i always ended up`having lots of perfume smell on my hand
whenever im returning home / off work !

im envy of those people who is in love`
how i wish i can fall in love again but
everytime` seeing the couples around`
quarrelling etc` it makes me to have second thoughts ?!
but nevertheless`im still searching for the one ?
recently`i thought i had found but i might be wrong ?
because everything seems to be one-sided ?
the feeling is great when the other party is around` :)
but well` like what i had mentioned` it might be wrong ?
another party wont feel the same way like what i does ?
Okay` CCUMF ?! >:) -figure it out if you're smart enough-
im not going to make the same mistakes again !

2010-06-10T01:04:00.002+08:00

i suddenly have the feeling to start doing MLM again ?!
without any mentor or a team which is already existing ?
just me` alone ! as i wish to see how far i can go`
how well can i build up a team and manage it and etc`
but for my standard` im only good in sales than recruiting ! >:(
and yes`i find myself got stuck in the middle`heading nowhere ?!
working as a promoter without any future ahead ?! argh.
im seriously getting sick and tired of life ! tsk.
anyway` being a promoter for freshkon contact lenses`
i've met all awesome people ! they're really funny and nice !
i had enjoyed myself working with them ! ^^
and of course` knowing others promoter like jolyn`emily and cecilia !
-they're acuvue and complete solution promoters ! :) -

recently` i feel more happy than usual ! ^^

2010-05-22T01:36:00.004+08:00

NOTE : IM LAZY AGAIN !

well` recently my life has been great ! :) love it.
but i havent been playing basketball for weeks ! >:(
Okay` shall have balling session on this coming tuesday ! ^^
had a small catch up session with jinhui and jasmine !
although it was just a little while but`
i had enjoyed myself with their pleasant` :)
im glad that i have such great friends around me !
and of course` my beloved clique ! :)
ladies` do you all want to have chalet ?! >:)
i feel like spending more time with you all`
and it seems like we are all starting to drift apart ! :(
anyway` we should plan some date to catch up first`
its been long since the last meet up ! >:/ imissyouall`

my stomach has been aching for the past few hours`
and yet` its still currently aching at this timing ! :(
god bless me` thanks ! ^^
ohya` i dont know why` im so into my family now !
especially towards my sisters ! just want to chat with them
more often than last time and to see them at home`
even though` we argue and quarrel most of the time ! >:)
oh`anyway` my third sister is a lame shit person ! -.-'

Okay` shall let it end here`
i need to force myself to sleep !
i dont want panda eyes ! >:(
goodnight people !

2010-05-17T23:16:00.008+08:00

NOTE : IM LAZY TO HIGHTLIGHT ! sorry :(

after days of calming down` i finally feel at ease !
im sorry that i did not pick up any phone calls and thanks people for the care and concern shown ! totally appreciated ! :)
i shall stop worrying on those unnecessary things now because this few days` i feel no-burden when i have stop worrying this and that and to the things which is totally none of my business ! shall continue to be like this and so` my worries will automatically cut down and i wont feel so stress anymore ?! ^^
ohya` i nearly went out of my mind to go for tarot reading ! Laughs.
i booked appointment with that lady but ended up` i set my flight for her ! haha` you people should know what i mean right ? ^^
although im curious but now` i think that there's no need to reveal my future or something anymore because no matter what happens` its still control by ourselves ! Okay` control by our hands i mean ! haha!

anyway fyi` im not going to be too curious on things anymore!
curiosity kills the cat ! up till now` i still remember this phrase !
all thanks to wenjie and hizam ! -.-'
ohmy` i miss them ! especially jeraldine ! :(
and out of sudden` i miss waking up at 4.30am and rush for the first or second bus ! standing for long hours` going up and down the escalator` having jokes` disturbing the other 2 CMI people and etc ! :(
JERALDINE` WENJIE`HIZAM : MEET UP SOON ALRIGHT ! ^^

ohya` not to forget` my mood today was totally great !
i feel so elated which i dont know why ?!
but nevermind` its a good thing though ^^
there's one person who never fail to make me laughs !
it's going to end of the day and yet`she's still brightening up my day at FB ! and the particular person is` Jenn LJH ! ^^

anyway` im down with flu and coughs ! >:(

at both ends` its the two which i had been mentioning`CMI ! tsk

2010-05-15T11:36:00.003+08:00

i need time to calm down now`
my emotional is currently unstable !
sorry people for not answering your calls and etc`
i need time to be alone !

all thanks to you` i feel the fear come knocking at my door again !
and this time round` im feeling so afraid than the previous one`
i dont know how to put it in words but this kind of fear that
i currently encountering is` i-never-had-before kind of feel !
and i dont know why` i feel that men is so scary !
but still` i have to thanks that particular person for showing me
the care and concern`and maybe a bit of love that i had sensed`
well` you're just another freaking bastard that i've known !
and thanks for showing me not to trust people so easily ! thanks so much ! and yes` for creating the current fear im having now !
i never regret knowing you because you taught me another
useful lessons that i should have learn in life ! THANKS !
alright` i need time to be alone now !
i need to clear my mind and calm my emotional ! bye.

2010-05-14T11:18:00.003+08:00

deutsche bank event had finally come to the end`
i had enjoyed myself with my team for the past 5 days`
even though` 2 of them really cant make it ! haha
its really exhausting because for these few days`
i have to be awake at 4.30AM`in order to catch the first or second bus
as i need to report at 6.45AM at marina bay sands !
and standing at the registration desk for more than 8-9 hours !
the only time to rest and have a proper sitting down was during lunch break ! but well` everything seems to be much better after the second or third day ! ohya` i missed the chance to see James Cameron ! :(
well `anyway`i enjoyed myself thats all ! ^^

seriously speaking` i have to change my thinking like a man now !
thinking like a lady just make me to feel more weak and emotional`
and sometimes i really wonder` why does some men / guys can
get over thing so quickly and as easy as ABC` if not`
they can just treat it as nothing happened ?! oh no.
it's really time to do some amendment `haha!
i dont want to be the one who always think alot whereas`
there's nothing inbetween everything ?!
for what i think so much when the other party dont ?!
wellwellwell` ladies/girls do thinks alot ! remember it`guys !
i really dislike the feeling of fear and insecure !
and people who step in and out of my life just like that`
its really disappointing you see` sigh..

im going to get busy with all the research and stuff`
and i shall thanks wenjie`hizam and jeraldine for telling me so many
things on business`marketing and economics ! ^^
and anyway` its time for me to be MORE mature`
just mature itself its not enough` i want MORE ! thankyou !

TIOMAN TRIP CANCELLED !

im not going to bother any further !
if Mr Ong Qinbao want to meet up next week` and discuss this again`
hell yes` im not going to bother !
no longer interested about this trip`thanks!

2010-05-05T03:34:00.003+08:00

i cant get into my lala land now ! :(
due to my sleeping time had passed ?!
i have been like this ever since the start of May !
only fall asleep in the morning`
getting up in the late afternoon and so`
my breakfast and lunch skipped`dinner take around 6pm !
if not` i can go without food for the whole day !
Well` sometimes it depends ! :)
its time to cut down my intake of drinking soft drinks since
i have succeeded cutting down my intake of tibits !
should have the habit of drinking more plain water instead !
Alright` i shall start planning some healthy intake of food etc ! ^^
A BIG NO-NO FOR TIBITS & SOFT DRINKS ! i have to control `
but once in awhile drinking soft drinks is alright hor ?! ^~^

ohya` i have forgotten to mention something in the previous post !
which is` TIOMAN TRIP IS CONFIRMED !
at first` there's some problem in between and there's one particular
person keep on dilly dally here and there`name - joshiah !
days after days` there's no confirmation made and my mood was
totally spoilt and so` i decided not to go anymore ! but when i want to
say this out` joshiah confirmed and so` i kept my mouth shut
as i dont want to spoilt mood ! but well` although my mood was spoilt by that stupid guy`im still half-looking forward for the date to arrive ! :)

im going to wait for the sun to be out !
i want to head to bangkit because i want to eat 'you tiao' !
i have been craving for it since weeks ago
but everytime` i fell asleep until noon !
hope this time round` i wont fall asleep ! ^^

anyway` it's hard to be the middle man ! >:(
time check : 4.32am now !
i shall find something to do or watch` bye!

2010-05-03T19:08:00.004+08:00

WORDY ENTRY !

Here comes the month of May !
finally`im going to have a good rest !
i've quitted my job` which was a shipping assistant
from arrow electronics asia !
and i felt so much relieved ! because of some personal issue`
well`whatever it is` im glad that i've left this company :)

1 May - stayed at home and went balling because
i want to exercise as i need to shake off some fats ! HAHA!
like usual` after balling` went to shop and save !
i think im really behaving more like an auntie at the age of 19 ?!
ohgosh` i dont want ! :(
meal for the day : only had small portion of porridge for
both breakfast and lunch !

2 May- didnt had breakfast and lunch because by the time i was
awake` it was almost dinner time ! and so` i went to park royal hotel
for buffet dinner with my family to celebrate advance mother's day !
this time round` the food wasnt bad` maybe because the mood was there
and i was freaking hungry ? haha !
finally get to eat chocolate after weeks ! and yes`
its taste so awful out of sudden` reason : it's too chocolaty ? i dont know.
because my sisters mentioned it's nice and taste great !
Okay` maybe its because my taste sense changed ! Laughs.

Today- supposed to wake up in the early morning to
meet my colleagues from breakfast ! but well` you see`
i was overslept ! because i fell asleep at 3am plus to 4am !
woke up in the afternoon and get myself rushed to Chai Chee !
wasted 30 minutes of my time just to sign documents which took
less than a minute ! up till now` im still wondering why cant they
send the documents to Clementi or fax it to let me sign on my last day ?!
HR mentioned it's privacy ?! but bullshit ! it's just a normal documents !
feeling so fed up with the management ! so what` if its a big company
and earn lots of money ?! the management is horrible please!
Okay` better stop mentioning it` im feeling pekchek already !
anyway`right after i finished signing documents etc`
went to bukit panjang plaza to meet jinhui for dinner -subway ! :)
i was feeling so freaking hungry when i was on my way to Chai Chee
and back to panjang` because i dint get to eat anything !
was convincing myself that im full before i get to meet up with her ! haha`
and seriously` i always enjoy myself when she's around ! :)
saw annie at glacious and we chatted for awhile !
ohmy` what i can say is that` im so envy of her !
she's so skinny and small size please ! *envy face*
ohya` not to forget` she gave us the biggest cup of the yogurt ice cream !
THANKS ANNIE ! :D

i totally have no idea on what im going to do next`
i feel that im in the middle of the deep forest`finding a way out of life !
im so envy of everyone out there` which i dont know why!
just simply envy only` haha! but some is the sweetness that i envy of in BGR` and even menses ! Laughs.
as you know` i've some health problem ! haha!
anyway` im lacking of something in my life !
i've been thinking what is it` there's two but i only found ONE which
is confidence` can someone tell me what is the another one ?!
or tell me what im lacking of in terms of everything ?
and i totally appreciate it !

you've to take good with the bad`
smile when you're sad`
love what you've got and remember what you had`
always forgive but never forget`
learn from mistakes and never regret`
people changes and things goes wrong`
and remember `life still go on no matter what !

2010-04-17T04:22:00.003+08:00

time check : 4.22am !
im not yet asleep !
well`have not been attending work for 2days !
because im sick` all thanks to the prawning session
i had on the 13th april ` haha!
6 hours of prawning really kills and the most
pathetic thing was` i only managed to catch 4 prawns !
but anyway` i enjoyed myself with them ! :)
all photos had been uploaded at facebook :)

few hours ago` which date was on the 16th`
went out with the girls to have a simple dinner
which im not suppose to do so` because im sick and
mummy doesnt allow me to go anywhere ! :(
but well` i still attend isnt ?! haha`
so i shall stop myself nagging about this`:P
enjoyed myself because jinhui doesnt fail to make us smile ! :)
all photos had been uploaded at facebook too ! :)

because of the rain` there's no balling session for me !
its been a week or so ?!
it always come at the right timing ! how to ball` you tell me ?!
indoor court ?! there will be too much people`
wait for next team` dont know how long it takes ?
so the idea dropped` and yes` its far !
well` hope it doesnt rain on this coming tuesday !
im here praying and praying real hard ! :X

anyway` nowadays i have been thinking that`
what if i cant achieve anything in the printing line ?
well` if its really happening`what i will do first will be
further my studies and join police academy !
maybe this will lead me to the life i want and feel so much happier ?
i dont know but i will try my best in the printing line first
because i will never know if i dont give it a try`
every experience counts which lead me to be a stronger person :)

time check: 5.20am !
shall catch some nap because im working later on !
i still have to attend work even though im still sick !
and there's no sign of recovering ! :(

THE FIVE !

2010-04-12T18:45:00.003+08:00

I LOST I LOST I LOST !
I LOST TO MYSELF !!
why cant i control myself ?!
its just the 6th day and yet`
i couldnt resist to talk to you !! >:(
but whatever it is` im trying ways to convince myself to stop
and yes` i declared that you won !
your ignorance and everything made my heart died`
well` no more i can say` because no matter how much
i do / did ` not even a little bit of changes have been seen !
forget it`forget it` forget it !
just let it be then` >:)

2010-04-10T23:43:00.000+08:00

in another 20 minutes` it's my 4th sister`
yuluan's 21st birthday ! :)
so` huang yuluan ! happy 21st in advance ! :)
saddening because time pass pretty fast !
and im reaching the 2 in another 11months ! >:)
but seriously` im looking forward !
people want to stay young and pretty`as for me`
i just want to keep growing up and stay nice instead of pretty :)

and yes` i had been really fed up with my current job because
of the delayed of pay ! can you imagine that up till now`
you still havent receive your pay ?!
which is like` going to the 3rd week of the month ?!
i've been complaining to one of my colleague who's in good terms
with me` and yes` only until yesterday i managed to get my pay slip !
cheque i mean ! banked in and i should be getting on tuesday ?!
because` there's no collection on saturday and monday collection
is a 3.30pm which mean` i can only get the money on
the next following day ! so answer me`
WHERE GOT PEOPLE GET THE PAY ON THE 3RD WEEK !?!

well` yesterday went to have BTT with youse !
like what i had expected` i failed the test ! :P
because i dint even have the time to study for the test !
so yesterday went to try my luck ! and seems like
my luck isnt good uh ! laughs !
well` booked again and it falls on june the 11th ! :)
which is my big sister's birthday ?! haha !
well` there's no celebration because she's not in singapore ! >:)

doesnt have much appetite lately !
just dont know the reason why and it caused me to have
gastric pain ? and the pain is giving me a hard time !
have been feeling so weak and im going to fall sick soon
due to lack of sleep ! :(
and yes` not to forget` my stomach has been aching since
yesterday ! keep going in and out of the toilet is going to make both
my legs to turn jelly ! laughs !
feeling so uncomfortable to the max ! :(

well` havent been messaging you for 4 days`
im feeling so $%^&*(@ ` ohwell`the feeling is so unexplainable !
i have put myself into your shoes` if im you` i will feel irritated`
so i decided to stop myself for doing this`
overall` you wont give a damn to it` haha !
but i seriously miss texting you ! :(

2010-04-04T20:02:00.000+08:00

i had a great fall yesterday at bpcc !
continuous twice in a row ! :(
because of the slipper i wore !
and yes` i fell down from the stairs ! - at the vending machine there-
i thought nothing happened` just a fall but
i found blueblack around my hip area !
a small and light blueblack from yesterday turned out
to be a big and dark one today ! :( :( :(
and this morning` my back is hurting me too !! :( :(

anyway` i felt great playing basketball in the rain !
its been a long time since i last played this kind of weather !
shiokness i can say ! :) :) :)
troubles just went off for a period of time ?!
even though its just a little while but i felt relieved ! :)
and yes` there was something which made me elated too ! heheh !
although its just awhile or just a few glance`you made me happy ! :)
but well` you're not treating me over the line`
no matter how much i had tried` nothing seems to change ?!
not even a bit of changes is seen ! :( :( :(
howhowhow ?! im down to the max ! :(
should i give up ?! >:(

2010-04-02T13:04:00.006+08:00

GOOD FRIDAY ! :D -loves-
a day to rest at home but i have to attend
work again tomorrow` :(
luckily tomorrow is saturday` half day work !
but might be having OT ! >:/
just finished playing mahjong !
and i swear i will never want to play with beginner type again anymore !
it's so freaking slow` slow` slow !
spent almost 2.5 hours to finish one round of dong nan xi bei ! >:/
the slowest game i ever had !

well` constipation is back in action again ! :(
feeling so uncomfortable due to stomach bloating !
my stomach is really funny`
there's a period of time when my stomach keep on
aching and aching and cause me to run in and out
of toilet for every few minutes or even stay at the toilet
for at least an hour but now` i want it also dont have ! :(
feeling so frustrated because of it ! >:(

alright` ECP program with the girls had changed it to 17th
instead of 10th ! :( one week later !
but still` im looking forward ! :)
love all these kind of outdoor activities ! :) :) :)

well` this few days at work was really happening !
this company really makes me experience alot` i swear !
well` 2 days ago i think` i had a argument with my manager
due to the workload etc and great` things turned out worse
than i imagine ! ended up` i have to track back 5 years ago
documents that filled with dust ! damn it~
well` never mind` shall tolerate for another 28days or
even earlier ` im counting down :)

great` having basic theory on the 9th`
and yet` i dint even study abit of it ! :(
alright` i shall do some studying later !
i want a one time pass okay ! laughs !

before the race started` you dint show up`
and im left behind to start running the race alone`
out of 100km ( just an example ) ` i dint even reach 1km yet ?!
should i give up ?! i know i have the time to wait but`
you doesnt seems to be bother with it and everything is all one sided`
i dont believe that nothing cant be changed but it happened`
i really dislike the feeling of giving up` but i think its time to let it go`
shall let nature take it course` because i couldnt stand myself
sending you a text and dont know what to say next`
like what i mentioned` you doesnt seems to be bothered`
as you wont reply etc` so what for ?
i` myself ` find it quite irritating for what i had done`
ohwell` call me an irritating freak ! thanks !

2010-03-28T22:40:00.002+08:00

had 18 hours of sleep but still feeling exhausted ! >:(
my big sister` huang yuting is back in action !
but well` she's returning back in less than 24hours time ! :(
had gathering last night with all my beloved sisters at district 10 restaurant`
except my younger sister ! ohmy` the environment and food
are very nice and the prices are vvv.nice too ! laughs !
but seriously` its worth it ! you guys` can go and have a try ! :)
no photos was taken ! not even one ! >:(

yesterday after work` went to had meeting with daniel`huiqun
and the printing boss` not alan but anthony` he's the in-charge
of singapore printing matters ? i think`
everything went smoothly and yes` i will be switching to my printing career once i quit my current job ! attending work nowadays is so miserable for me !
how i wish i can settle this as soon as possible !

im currently talking to jasmine and amanda` on the hottest topic !
im seriously laughing out loud with all the comments i typed etc`
out of sudden` i dont know why i became so gossipy or 3-8 i can say ! laughs !
but well` only on this hottest topic i swear ! :)
it was the greatest joke ever ! haha !

2010-03-26T20:29:00.002+08:00

finally im left with one report !
have to complete before end of month !
well` my work load has been getting heavier and heavier !
everyone of them`just dump all the work for me to do ! >:/
and yes` i dint even have enough time to do my own work and
i still need to help them to complete all the documents !
and this lead me to work overtime ( OT ) to complete my own work ! :(

was being setup by one of my colleagues twice !!
just simply cant understand the reason why am i so 'lucky'
documents went missing and i've to track back !
while tracking back the documents` i injured my finger by a
metal chip` pen-knife and all so sort of things that is sharp! >:/
and now i finally know who's behind all this` causing me so much troubles !
i swear that i dint even talk much in office and i can be mute for hours !
if it is because of what i says offended her to cause all this`
thats totally impossible because` i dint even talk to her ?! even if i did`
its just a few words for the whole freaking day !
if not`there's totally no communication between us !
heard rumors that she's having jealously on me ?!
well` i've nothing for her to get jealous of and
i've no threat for her so tell me` what for ?!
im harmless`you know :) :) :) but well` you dint !
well`you can continue to be like this`
i shall train my tolerance`at the same time i can see where's the limit of mine and yes` i should thank you instead ! >:)

has been losing my appetite due to rushing of reports and
all the happening things at work !
and of course`have not been sleeping well at night ! :(
well`playing basketball nowadays is making myself to feel relief`
to me`talking out loud and laughing out loud is just a form of distress`
im not happy but i have to be happy happy happy !
have to put on a smile even though i am ... ...
alright` enough of ranting !
im exhausted to the max ! goodnight peeps !

p.s. i can accept failure but i cannot accept the fact of giving up so` im going to hold on ! i just dislike the feeling of giving up ! and it's still you` trust me ! laughs !

2010-03-21T23:07:00.002+08:00

recently` the weather is really cold and it
keep on raining and raining !
i love the cooling weather but please` not the rain !
the rain spoilt my mood whenever im heading out !
but i love it when im at home because`
its a good weather to fall asleep ! :)
wellwell` it's complicated ! laughs !

jinhui had went oversea for study trip !
although its just a 9 days trip`but jinhui` imy! :)
okay` it sounds quite disgusting ! haha!
and yes` im looking forward to the second week of april
because we're going to ECP for cycling` picnic etc !
im always joyful when they're around ! :)

stomach has been aching for days !
and im feeling so uncomfortable towards it !
and working has been really stressful for me`
so many reports need to be completed but yet`
im only done with a few ! >:/

anyway` nowadays i've been thinking something which is`
i want to study ! i want to go to school !
have been thinking to study part time courses in kaplan`
the first thing that came into my mind is studying business`
and well` my 4th sister suggested me to study business too !
and yes` im going to pay for my own school fees`
i wont ask my dad for it because he had given me the chance to
study last time but` haha ! i didnt appreciated the chance given !
im searching for schools currently !
but for some` i couldnt meet the requirement !
because i only have N level but they want O level ! argh`
alright` for the time being` i will do some research first ! :)

p.s. my eyes is still on you even though you doesnt have any

2010-03-15T02:53:00.003+08:00

WARNING : THIS ENTRY IS GOING TO BE A LONG AND WORDY POST
(lazy to highlight some sentences in red` sorry ! )

TOPIC : HUMANS IS COMPLICATED ?!

it's been a week since i last blogged`
but who cares anyway`haha!
im feeling so uncomfortable recently`
im heading to polyc tomorrow instead of attending work !
anyway` not forgetting to mention that`
i had enjoyed myself and had a blast on my 19th !
really appreciated the girls for their pleasant and the gift :)
and of course` totally appreciated for those wishes that
you people wished me ! :) thankyou people !

i have much better things to do and achieve in life now`
im moving forward and no longer holding on the past which caused
me to be stuck at times ! haha` whatever it is`
im happy with my life now even though it can be really stress`
because i know there's people for me to fall on when i need them`
especially my family and friends ! i totally appreciated them
for every single thing and the supports given ! :)

i need to do some changing now`
after a year plus of controlling from my mentor` im free
but suddenly` i just became so blur to the outside world ?! haha
fyi` i was being controlled by my mentor on the world outside`
the only topic for the past one year was all about career and no
entertainment mentioned ! well` its not just me alone who was
being controlled` i really gained alot from my mentor` because he's
the one that caused me not to trust anyone anymore ? except my
close friends and family :) ` fyi again` i was doing MLM for the past
one year plus` whatever he had done` all of us had forgiven him and
moving on our life but i still appreciated for the things he taught me`
out of sudden` i missed the time when i used to get scolding everyday!
ohmygod` can you imagine` getting scolding everyday when you're not
at fault or whatever shit ? even if you do something good or proud` you
will still get scolding ? ohmy` i really wonder how i can live through all
these` haha ! really experience alot because i get to see different client
everyday` family and friends not supporting` got 'cold water' from
all sort of people` rejection by client ` keep learning from my mentor`
the scoldings and the stress i had etc` was all i got for the past one year`

going out with friends was being controlled that leads to no entertainment`
seems like everything i (we) did was being watched`
but now` its been 2months since we left` and im contacting
back to the outside world ! haha` i admit that im slow in
friend's conversation because sometimes i dont even know what
are they talking and thinking is abit different`you see ! haha
why not` ask me about my career and dreams i want to achieve ?
for this` you will see how fast i will answer back ! LOL
as i mentioned above` the past one year` all i had done was
building up my own career and dreams that i want to achieve`
even though i (we) had left the place but nothing can stop us
from achieving what we want` we're still moving on ourselves`
we prefer / rather come out and face or handle things on ourselves
than getting cheated by people again ! well`
humans is complicated ! haha`

and yes` i still have much better things to carry on with my life :)
no matter how tough or how long the journey takes`
i will stand on firmly and strongly to encounter all sort of risks
coming on my way` because i know what i want to achieve in life`
no matter which path i choose to achieve my dreams`
i will have no regret on it and i shall not regret !
it's normal for humans to go on the wrong path but
he/she shall not regret for the chosen path because that is what
he/she chose in the first place ?!

ohya`being too curious on something`
is it a good or a bad ? im wondering` haha!

they're my beloved ! :)

2010-03-06T04:03:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF ! :D

one year older ! officially`im finally 19 !
its time to stop hanging in between of the past and future`
its time to move on and im glad that everything
is going to come to an end soon` and i seriously had
forgiven what was being done with god's presence :)
i give thanks to god for taking me out from the darkest in life` :)

i only had programs in the evening !
so what am i going to do in the afternoon ?!
can someone please tell me ?! sleep at home or go shopping alone ?
tomorrow finally have a day off for me!
alright` i think im going to sleep and see what time am i awake
and shall decide then` time is getting late !
goodnight peeps ! :)

2010-03-02T04:08:00.005+08:00

in the next 4 days` im going to be 19 !
and everything is not fully planned ! haha
alright` will re-confirm with the girls again :)

finally im here to declare that`
im going to end my current job at this end of month !
totally cant stand every single things over there to the max !
so after this freaking job` im going to start concentrating on
my career which is on printing ! well` its career and no longer
job` so if you cant definite what is career and job` you can simply
just go to dictionary.com to search the meaning of it ! thanks :X

i have not been eating dinner for a week`
just having lunch per day ! which i mean` 1 freaking meal per day !
im not on diet but just doesnt have the appetite to eat
when the day turns to evening and because of this`
i have been losing weight ! NICE !
now im thinking of those dinner im going to have for another days time !

maybe the biggest birthday gift i want to receive is you !
but everything is impossible !
shall stop thinking of it and back to normal :D

SPOT ME ! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY` SARAH ! :)

2010-02-16T02:52:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE !

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO CHEW ZIQUN ! :)

im currently still at my sister's house`
lucky she live at bangkit` but well`
all of us dont intend to go home because we are
going to swim later ! :) wooh` exercise exercise !
further more` we are still playing mahjong and we are taking turns !
i have the time to blog now is because` i just finished playing !
and i won ! but well` it only takes to cover the lost in the game
of poker which i played` :( and i realised that` i really cant play poker !
because i have been losing ever since i start playing` lol`
shall not try again but for mahjong` haha ! different case ! :P

heading to ziqun's birthday celebration at the central in the evening ! :)
and yes` there's no aeroplane for me ! haha!
will be heading home early because i need to attend work on
the following day :( i dont want` i dont want and i dont feel like it ! :( :(
ohmy` i think im going to have OT for at least 4 days before 20th`
to complete my reports ! :( sigh to the max !

this chinese new year` making me to sigh more to the max
is because all of us` couldnt celebrate as a team anymore !
i really wish that` what was being told to me/us isnt the truth !
but indeed` it was ! seriously i need to forget even though i had forgiven`
and well` i still think that` you're more pity than me but
whatever you had done to us was too over !
nothing more to comment on you` because overall` you're still my mentor
but what a devil heart`you have !

Okayokay` i shall be happy anyway`because i had left the person
that i should ! smile smile smile ! and im smiling ! :)
alright` gamble time again !
since it isnt my turn for mahjong then shall play poker ! haha !
wish me lucks ! :)

love everyone of you out there ! hahahahah!
byebye!

2010-02-12T00:44:00.008+08:00

WEEKS AGO`

has been really busy for the past weeks`
and was too exhausted to post any entry !
a lot of things happened` which i dont feel like
elaborate over here` but i hereby thanks to those
people who is giving me the support on the things im doing etc`
especially my girls ! totally appreciated and im glad to have you girls !

everything had passed` and i hope it can be fast to put it to an end`
but well` it still takes time because there's alot of things to be settled`
no matter how much you had cheated me` i will never forget
what you had taught me in the past` moreover`
you're the mentor who i respected the most !
for only those who know what had happened but not exactly`
felt that im pity and stupid and i should hate you to the max which
my sister said i should` but frankly speaking`i cant !
because to me` after what i had heard from daniel`
i felt that you're more pity than i do and for another reason is because`
i still couldnt get over what you had done on everyone of us !
even though i had forgiven you`i simply just cant forget what had happened`
its the worse experience i had ever encounter and because of such issue`
it leads me to 2 weeks of insomnia which made me feel like
im-a-walking-zombie ! and i have to pretend im happy or always
smiling`behaving the way which is not-exactly-me`
crazy-like-nobody-business`infront of friends`
at that point of time` i felt miserable seriously !
and whenever i start thinking about it` i just couldnt control my tears`
and because of not letting myself to be like this again`
i used ways to keep myself busy and exhausted to the max by
playing basketball`working OT` and yes` shopping alone after work`
in order to reach home late ! so that i can fall asleep when i reached home`
but well` im getting over it` so i shall not continue to rant ! lesson learned` and i should not trust people easily again !

i thanks jesus for lighting up my path and show me the way to move ahead`
giving a peace of heart to me` letting me to let go of everything`
and to start anew` giving us blessing on everything we do !
thanks god that you're here by my side` drawing close to you !
ILY JESUS ! :)

RECENTLY`

finally had a basketball gathering cum ah dong's advanced birthday celebration`its great to see the team again` AES year'06 team mates is loved ! they are still as funny as ever ! and everyone turns to pretty lady! except me :( ` haha ! joke. and its great to see that everyone is doing fine ! enjoying life etc etc` :) hope to have such gathering again !

CNY is around the corner` and i doesnt have the CNY-MOOD ! like example : yeah ! CNY` can get as many red packet as last year etc etc ! to me is ' yeah! finally i can have enough rest etc' haha ! as im restless nowadays ! and further more` it falls on Vday ! totally sian to the max ! and well` im not going anywhere for this CNY and Vday !

work has been okay for me` and i have more than 6 reports need to be done by 20th ! and yet CNY took away 4days from me and now i left with another 4more days ! tell me how to complete ! argh..

my bonding with my 4th sister ( yuluan ) is getting closer and closer` due to some issue`and because of this` i finally feel ' family' love ! hahaha !

tomorrow which is in a few hours time` im heading to meet jinhui after work` to go bugis for shopping etc ! looking forward :) ` might be meeting my 3 sisters and mum at chinatown !

Okay` shall stop ranting already ! time now is 3.10AM !
and i shall head to bed now because i need to wake up at 7AM for work !
bye peeps ! :)
ohya` this date reminds me of ** hahaha !

4 YEARS AGO !

4 YEARS LATER !

2010-01-22T00:47:00.007+08:00

First Part of Story which i heard from daniel`

and i couldnt believe my hears when i heard it`
and i was totally speechless when he told me`
i dont know who shall i listen to ? daniel or my mentor ?
both of them is harmless to me` because i know daniel for >10 years`
and my mentor for >1years`they're both good to me and teaches
me alot of things up till now ` which i totally appreciated to the max !
but now` there's something happened in between`
daniel might leave my mentor and my mentor dont seems to be bothered !
its really troubled me and to daniel too` because he have stayed at
my upline's side learning and doing things >3years`
although` all of us doesnt have kinship but at least there's some
relationship for each and everyone of us ?
well` i wont mention what exactly happened which caused such problem`but just want to rant about it and i dont feel like seeing my mentor for a sudden`
as thinking it logically` daniel was right !

Second Part`

i really feel so disappointed and down to the max when i heard
that i am just like a toy to play around`
im totally disappointed in you` i feel like i had fell on the floor/ground
real hard with injuries ! alright` im going to be awake and let go of the pain
which i had on you` i have enough of everything`
what daniel said was right` you're not worthy for me to do so much stuff on you`
what for ? as everything is just one-sided ! its enough enough enough..... :'(
and i dont think that` thats the way to prove anything !

i really had enough of all these thing
people says: 'bad experience once is enough'
i got more than once
i feel like a failure
ending ? still the same from previous
crying alone for ?
im really down to the max now ! :'(
feeling so uncomfortable
nobody will ever know how i feel ? because they're not me` so what if they encountered such stuff before ? every situation is different and i have not stated what exactly happened`thanks and dont ever tell me`you know how i feel !
conclusion : everything is worthless
huang yuqing` stop crying !!! be strong be strong be strong....

Last Part`

future ?! my mind is still blank at the moment`
its linked from the first part` after hearing all the things from
daniel` im still wondering whether should i continue to follow my mentor`
i feel so hard to follow now ! but to think of it` my mentor treated me well too !
I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW !
look at the time now ! i need to work tomorrow and yet im still not yet asleep !
over here` ranting such stuff that nobody will actually understand !
fuck ! i dont feel like continue the post !
because whatever i says` no one will get it` so what for !

2010-01-12T23:24:00.003+08:00

these few days` i will be busy due to interview
of admin jobs ! haha`
at first` there's totally no response for quite a number
of resume sent out` and yesterday`
after receiving one call which asked me for interview`
the rest of the companies which i had sent my resume out`
asked me for interview too ! how great !
and now i can choose which companies to get in etc` :)

how sickening it is to fall into the same old tricks
that devil had planned !
today` i fell into his plot again ! yet`again !
why cant i just stay in a calm mind and think it over and over again ?
fuck` made two mistakes today and i had disappointed *someone !
totally regretted ! im just too immature !
totally cant stand myself now to the max !

Jesus` in your mighty name i pray that`
you will give me wisdom to handle given tasks and done
perfectly and giving me the maturity to think and to speak`
and to love myself more than others` but not to the extend of
selfishness` giving me the peace to calm myself down`in order
to think properly`and changing my bad habits ! thankyou jesus !
thanks for always being here with me ! thanks god ! AMEN !

2010-01-09T01:35:00.002+08:00

nowadays`im feeling so exhausted !
and well` i want to go to JB at the month end`
to get my heels ! :D

I WANT TO WATCH AVATAR !!

2010-01-04T00:57:00.010+08:00

BIRTHDAY GIRL ! :D

MY GIRLS ! :D

Okay`finally i decided to upload some pictures !
the photos was taken on the 1st Jan 2010 !
and it was memorable to me ! i really miss the fun with the girls ! :(
ohwell` in hours time` everyone who is studying need to attend school !
and my niece and nephew is still not sleeping !
look at the time now` its so damn late !
and caleb needs to be awake at 6.15am for his first day in primary school !
and yet` he's at the room` playing and playing like nobody business !
as for chloe and wayne` i dont care too much as they are attending school
in the afternoon unlike cable ! scolding and canning seems to be useless !
and i felt that` i totally have no peace for the past few hours ever since`chloe and wayne came back and with a drunken at home which was`my father !
noise pollution is so damn irritating especially at this late night !

sometimes` i really thought of moving out of the house !
but of course` it's just a remark from me !
no matter how i hate` this is still my family`
and to put myself in my mum's shoe` i can see how
hard she's maintaining this home ! and to see the way how
the kids treat her` i felt pity and to look at myself on how im treating her`
i felt guilty ! totally guilty to the max !
and after today`seeing how my ****** treated her`
i promised myself that i will want to treat her better and
help her in the housework etc` i swear !
and of course` giving her allowance once i have a stable job
at my sister's workplace ! i have to go through interview after
my sister is back from taiwan which is this coming saturday!

ohwell` i had a dream from my nap which was 6hours back !
and i dreamed that me and jiewei get back together again !
well` of course i do know that its totally impossible and
0% will come true` a dream is a dream !
and i've to wake up after the dream`realising that all this is untruth !
but well` i can feel how happy i am during the dream itself !
i can sense the happiness which im searching for` haha !
even though it was just a dream but im satisfied !
and its more than enough ! :D
ong jiewei` i really really miss you !
i just want to see you one more time after so long !
and i shall faster arrange the date to meet up with you
since you promised me ! :D
and yes` you will never ever see this post of mine !
so i had no worries to type out my feeling towards you !
and i mean` concern and etc
cheers ! hahahahaha ! :P

anyway` time now is 2.26am !
and yet` the kids are still not asleep ! HOW ?!

2010-01-01T16:06:00.002+08:00

YOUSE` HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY ! :D

yesterday` i spent my new year eve`
playing mahjong with family`
countdown at church and went to youse's house
for her birthday party ! :D

time files ! it's year 2010 now !
welcoming all the good news this year !
those bad experience etc` shall let it pass ! :D

today activities will be going to jinhui's house
for steamboat in the late evening and catch movie at
town with her and youse ! :D

byebye`
im lazy to post any further`
not in the mood too ! :/

2009-12-31T01:23:00.001+08:00

THIS IS A LONG AND WORDY ENTRY`
i swear ~

in 23hours time` year 2009 will draw to an end`
and welcome the year 2010 !
to me` year 2009 is a bad year for me !
does it apply to everyone out there ? :)
but i learned / gained alot from this year 2009 !
well` we shall let all the bad things pass and
welcome all the good things in year 2010 ! :D

Okay` i had made a thought and decided to have an entry
on what actually im doing regarding my career ` which
everyone has been asking me recently !

being a beauty therapist` helping people to do facial is a " on & off " thing` which mean` i dint earn much money from here

regarding about the printing and advertisement company i've been mentioning nowadays` im still working hard to merge with company`like printing flyers etc ! and there's no news in return` which mean` no income too ! - fyi` im referring to the company which my mentor had set up` which named` DeMiracles -

after a long period of unstable income` im currently looking for a full time job to gain more experience and of course at the same time` stable my income first !

alright ! even though im finding a full time job`
but still i will continue the printing and advertisement !
although i might sound #$%^#$%^ but who cares ?!
my heart is stuck with DeMiracles ! which mean`
to you people` it may seems like` im working printing and advertisement
as a part timer but actually` my stand of view is full timer instead !
i know what i want to achieve in the end ! no matter which method
im using` i will still reach the goal i want ! :D

im not in a losing point and i might be gaining alot from the work i've
applied but currently im waiting for reply ! haha`
i need to grow up from the teaching of outsiders` only by that`
i can grow and realise whats the world out there !
gaining experience helps me in my growing stage of business !
im still not ready in business world ! :(
and i think i need to do some reflecting !
well` overall` its all for my own good isnt ?
so anyway` what i want to say` is all stated over here` so
you people shall stop asking me anymore !
ohya` fyi again` im looking for >1.4k job ! :D

im so sorry for the wordy entry! haha !
i've realised something which i can make myself feel relief `
which is` playing basketball ! only that` i feel all the burden in
me is gone for that few hours` i swear !
and when im not balling` i feel so stress up !
everything just doesnt seems right for me ? but its not true because`
im just giving myself too many 'unknown' stress !
i always want to be happy and its from the bottom of my heart`
but everytime` im just forcing myself to smile ?!
pretend pretend and keep on pretending`
even though` friends do make me smile / laughs`
its just like a few moment ?
staying at home` hearing the kids shouting and shouting`
making the whole house in a mess` make me feel so frustrated !

last but not least of my wordy entry`
i thanks god for giving us the best of the best !
he knows what we need of ` for the time being !
i give thanks to god and give him glory ! :D

time now is 3.15am !
and i shall get to bed !
goodbye and goodnight everyone !

2009-12-26T02:16:00.003+08:00

Christmas Day` 25 December 2009 ! henderson wave !
finally` there's no aeroplane for this day ! haha`
feeling so great with them and im loving it ! :D

few hours ago` which was Christmas Day`
and i spent my whole morning all the way to evening`
with my mentor and the rest ! :D
went to church for christmas party and went to upline's house
to have potluck` and of course` discussing some exciting stuff
which we are all currently doing right now !
had gift exchanged too ! :D
headed to meet up with joyce`jinhui` youse to henderson wave !
before we reached the place`we had some "exercise" haha !
ziqun reached when we just finished setting up the place !
chatted ` played ` photo-taking session ! and joshiah came`
continued chatting and photo-taking ! home sweet home ! :D

ohmy` i really miss the fun with them around`
and i decided to go clubbing with them someday ! haha`
bye` goodnight !
im exhausted ! haha`

2009-12-24T16:00:00.002+08:00

whats the meaning of christmas ?!
does everyone knows that ?
christmas is a thanks-giving day !
and which Jesus Christ was born to take punishment for our sins !
he paid the price in full and we are free from condemnation
when we accept that free gift of love.
CHRISTMAS = LOVE FROM GOD !
thankyou jesus ! :D ily !

ohwell` i just had a wrong thought about christmas`
even though` i know its a thanks-giving day !
but saying of thanks-giving` it makes me think of
getting presents which is a big-big headache for me !
because i dont know what to get` and my pocket is already
in a big hole ! HOW ?! i feel so stress suddenly !
sigh.............. not in a mood to continue anymore !
bye.

2009-12-23T17:37:00.004+08:00

yesterday and today was so exhausted`
but i managed to adjust back my sleeping time !
yeah ! feel so great about it ! :D

recently i have been stressing about M !
well` it not just recently !
its been awhile already !
and in this 18 years old life` i didnt feel so broke before !
well` i know its my fault regarding about this
because im too lazy` always make things delayed etc ! :(
if not` unable to handle things effectively ! :(
my financial is @#$%^& TIGHT !
unable to describe the tightness because its over the max ! saddening :(
couldnt enjoy shopping like what i always did in the past ! i miss the life !
in order to get back to the life that i want`
i must work / strive extra harder for this advertisement project and printing`
that we are currently doing ! jiayou`jiayou`jiayou ! :D
look towards the brighter side of life ! :)

balled today and i've enjoyed myself !
but someone made me feel so irritated and pissed off !
if i dont like you` i will show it to you and it will be very obvious!
so` dont tell me ` you dont know it !

2009-12-21T07:36:00.002+08:00

i just woke up from this weird timing !
and i fell asleep at before 5am !
which means` i only had less than 3 hours of sleep ! :(
well` never mind` i shall replenish my energy in the noon !
haha ! anyway` yesterday was jasmine's birthday`so`
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU ! :D

yesterday i felt so exhausted !
but i still seems to have alot of energy when i meet up
with jasmine they all at alvin's house`
hereby apologised to both J's because we were talking halfway
and i left the conversation without telling them that im out` sorry J's !
J` if you need help in checking etc` do let me know what you want
to find out about ? maybe i could help you in searching at net so that
you wont feel @#$%^&* ! :)

year 2009 is coming to the end soon in 10 days time !
year 2010 is knocking to us in 10 days time !
another year is going to pass off like this`seems wasted !
had a look at my organiser'09 and i realised that for the past few months`
im either busy with work or fixing appointment / meeting up with clients
and neglected my friends` being an aeroplane girl since then`
well` to be exact` since secondary school`
i had been giving them @#$%^&* times of aeroplane ! haha !
i really need to do some catching up with them but most of time`
one big aeroplane will pass by their ears ! lol

I MISS YOU GIRLS !

2009-12-18T23:47:00.002+08:00

went back to school for the alumni basketball match`
played against the new girls`
it was great and i enjoyed myself :)
although there's a attitude-like junior !
only 8 old girls attended this basketball match`
me`jinhui`vanessa`denise`ziqun`sarah`shishi`xiaolin !
played for not long` xiaolin and vanessa went off`
ziqun went to do something` game continued`
left with 5 players and i was drained out due to lack of stamina` haha!
we` old girls played formation which is 洗牌 !
seems like this is the only formation we can remember
after so long` as this is the easiest formation ? :D
and before hand` i waited for vanessa near an hour ! >:/

was chatting with jinhui just now`
and was chatting about our good old times`time files`
everything just seems to be happened yesterday which
had passed for years`to me ! haha!
went to have a look at some of my previous entries`
especially for the year 2006 which was the year i met jiewei`
tears flowing through my eyes`
and memories will always stay as memories`
might be meeting him next week` couldnt confirm yet !
he's too busy than i am`you see ! haha !
it would be good for me to meet up with him again`
because its time to let go of things and back to reality !
my brain memory card stored too much of his stuff for this
past 3 years` no wonder my brain couldnt get in more things
because he stands @#$%^&* GB ! so its time to do some reformat !
haha` joke isnt !?!
anyway` i can confirm that my feeling towards him is no longer
"that" feeling but only concern` :)

Okay`im getting away from topic`
so i was saying that me and jinhui was chatting about our good old times`
she posted an entry just now regarding the past`
and i had a great laugh on it` haha! especially those old entries we posted during
our young times ! haha` i need to admit that im getting older already!
going to be 19 years old in 3 months time ! so fast ! :(
anyway` if you need a great laugh` go and visit jinhui's blog ! :)
and yes` if you want to view my old entries out of boredom`
head to http://livewithadream.blogspot.com !
but for year 2006`i had made it hidden ! :)

time now is 2.12am ! and im going to head to bed !
tomorrow heading to tampines tomorrow for church meeting !
and i will be balling after that ! :)
bye and goodnight people !

MS PEK` I NEED THE PHOTOS ! :D

2009-12-11T05:09:00.003+08:00

ohwell`look at the timing and yet im still awake!
i just couldnt get to sleep !
maybe` i have been thinking too much lately !
and the problem is` i dont even know what am i thinking ?!
i had been like this for the past few days !
is it a sign for my health again ?!
oh no ! i dont want the history to repeat again !
okayokay` im going to sleep early tonight !

before im heading to my beautiful wonderland`
im going to meet eddie at bangkit to eat and chit-chat at 5.45am`
once i reached home` i make sure i will fall asleep straight away
due to the tiredness ! haha!
thanks eddie for killing my boredom ! :)

Dear Lord Jesus`
in your name i pray that you're here to watch us
and give us your greater planning to DeMiracles !
every obstacles that we encountered is for us to gain experience
and start to think maturely as a form of growing up !
Jesus` i give you thanks !
please draw me close to you and never let me go`
Lord` i give you my heart`my soul and i live for you alone !
God` please have your way in me !
carry me and walk together with you` my savior !
i give thanks for all the upcoming blessing for everyone of us
in DeMiracles ! thankyou Jesus Christ ! -ily-

2009-12-06T23:42:00.000+08:00

I WANT THIS GUCCI WALLET !
224225 FTAQT 9643 ` 390 USD !

AND THIS...

COACH BAG AT 398 USD !
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well` i will be working hard to achieve it`
my aim to get this is before my next year birthday's gift for myself !
but of course` i know i can do it before that`
as everyone of us is working hard to achieve what we want`
and for the time being` i only can see through photos !
because` everything just started in DeMiracles`
financial wise` erm` have to save up ! =)

huang yuqing` jiayou jiayou jiayou !
sufficient calls for 15 appointments a week !
AIM : get first 10cases in 3days !
close at least 10 cases by end of month !
each cases` 1 FULL page of advertisement !
god bless ! =D

Dear Lord Jesus`
i give thanks to you that whenever i need you
you're here for me`
when i encounter troubles` before i start worrying`
you are already worrying for me`
before i seek you for troubles`
you've already know the problems which i have been encountering`
and finding solution for me !
Lord Jesus` thank you so much for being here for everyone of us !
Jesus` i felt sinful for the past few days of the things that i had done`
Lord` thank you for your forgiveness ! thanks for your grace and mercy !
You're the God` the Healer` the Deliverer !
Lord` i want to offer up my life to you for bringing up me day by day
with your righteousness and recognizing us as your children with
abundant harvest !
thanks god for the tremendous blessing of victories news flood
in our team everyday ! THANK YOU LORD` JESUS!
ILY ! =)

2009-12-01T23:08:00.004+08:00

finally` i've talked to jiewei just now !
and finally` he replied me ! haha`
i dont deny that` after so long i still have feeling for him !
i dont know what makes me hold for so long`
and what i can say that` he's already lived in my heart
which i cant get rid of` no matter how hard i've tried`
lived in a room with no charges over the years ! haha`
i` myself find it stupid whereas` together for 3months -just nice-`
and waited for years when i know there wont be any outcome !
i wonder` what is the strong mindset for me to keep waiting`haha
everything has come to the end` and i knew it long ago`
just that` im bluffing myself`
hope everything will get back to the same when we first met`
which is` back to be friends ! =)
im in a happy frame of mind ! =D im really glad`

YuqiNg

hello, how have you been ? =)

10:52pmOng

not very good

10:52pmYuqiNg

haha. why ? what happened ?

finally talked to me ah. LOL

10:52pmOng

haha

10:54pmYuqiNg

hey, you havent answer me, haha for what, lol, why not very good ?

quarrelled ?

10:55pmOng

i dont feel like talking

10:55pmYuqiNg

alright, fine then...

hahaha

how's studies ?

11:03pmYuqiNg

haha. everytime like this. no changes. how old already, haha ! =P. just kidding, never mind never mind, chat with you when you're in good mood although i wont know when is gonna be. hahaa ! take care ah. =)

11:04pmOng

i just brk up with gf

that's why dont feel like talking

hope u uds

11:06pmYuqiNg

okayokay. im sorry for asking. dont be worry / sad ? everything will go back like usual ? its been long since you all started isnt ? cheerup !

i understand.........

11:23pmYuqiNg

bytheway, im sorry for being mean.

11:24pmOng

it's okay

11:27pmYuqiNg

anyway. in future, can i still find you ? at least be friends ah, hahaha ! =), bu hui jue de wo hen fan bah ?

11:29pmOng

go where find me ?

11:29pmYuqiNg

-.-' i mean, stay in contact.....

11:29pmOng

11:30pmYuqiNg

9679 **** right ? haha,

smart eh. =)

11:30pmOng

yup

11:31pmYuqiNg

11:32pmYuqiNg

mine is 9385 **** , hahaha, message you better reply. LOL. just kidding. anyway, jing shen yi dian lah, =)

11:33pmOng

okok

thanks

11:35pmYuqiNg

dont mentioned. giving friends in emotion support is what i always do =P. okay lah, dont disturb you, yi dian dou bu xiang jiang hua de yang zi. haha.

11:36pmOng

haha

11:37pmYuqiNg

alright then, take care and rest well tonight. message you , reply , hahah. k lah, nagging. lol, goodnight !

2009-12-01T01:53:00.003+08:00

its been a long time since i last blogged`haha!
ohwell` i went balling just now`
nearly injured my left leg again ! =/
but overall` it was fun ! =)
alright` im sleepy now`
and the mood to blog isnt right` so
goodbye and goodnight !

again`i dreamed about you ! -ojw-

2009-11-07T23:38:00.003+08:00

DEAR LORD JESUS`ILY !
thankyou for all the miracles happening around us !
thankyou so much for being there for every single one of us !
i give thanks to you for your mercy`grace and forgiveness upon us !
you're the only one that im believing in with faith`
and i will be obedience towards everything you're asking for`
i've heard your words Matthew 6:32 and Matthew 7:8`
i believed that Jesus` you are before us to protect` in us to give us wisdom`behind us to support`hold us to succeed and win victoriously to reach the peak !
i will receive the tremendous blessings of victories and there will be flooded with good news everyday from our Lord`Jesus Christ`
i claim to our Lord` Jesus that He's our way` our provider !
i will work with full commitment and proactively because
ALL THING ARE POSSILBE IN GOD'S WAY !
I CAN ACHIEVE AND HARVEST FRUITFULLY`
and i believed Jesus that you are here to guide us
and bring us up day by day with abundance!
in Jesus mighty name` i pray` AMEN !

2009-11-05T03:58:00.005+08:00

EVERYTHING IS GETTING MORE AND MORE

EXCITING ! JIAYOU`JIAYOU`JIAYOU !

Dear Lord Jesus,

i want to offer up my life to you for bringing up me day by day with your righteousness and recognizing us as your children with abundant harvest.

i want to declare and claim that :

God is before us to protect

In us to give us wisdom

Behind us to support

Hold us to succeed

Win victoriously to reach the peak

To fulfill our D&M vision as 1 united solid Team

Thanks God for your tremendous blessing of victories news flood in our team everyday.

Bless us with wondrous growing in sales and customers' base to be the most promising company in Singapore! In Jesus Mighty Name I Pray. AMEN !

Jesus. I Love You !

* Morning Prayer for EVERYDAY ! =)

Through God` EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE !

Thanks Jesus ! amen*

2009-11-02T23:33:00.003+08:00

EVERYTHING IS FINE !
wednesday having meeting at 6pm`fuchun community centre`
im still collecting the information needed halfway through`
and i BELIEVE everything i prepared will go smoothly and nicely !
because` GOD is with me !
with GOD around` ALL things is POSSIBLE !
alright` im totally exhausted but im going to do 30 minutes of my
workout first before i head to bed !
exercise everyday to keep healthy and fit ! =)
goodbye.

*Joyce : better for your eyes to see now ? =D *

ohya` i might be joining aerobics dance or kickboxing at BPCC !
exercise.exercise.exercise` =)

2009-10-27T03:15:00.002+08:00

blogging at late night again`
and i know it's very bad for health for staying awake till so late`
well` i had few hours of nap during evening`
slept all the way to 11pm plus` near midnight`
had dreamed 3 dreams today`
2 dreams was dreamed before i woke up in the morning`
and 1 dream during the evening's nap !
3 dreams dreamed was in different circumstances`
but the dreams were almost the same`
and i believed that` it's a message for me to realise`
currently` im still figuring out what's the message sent to me is about !
haha`

well` my mission for the day 26 October' 09` FAILED !
managed to get 9 emails instead of 20 emails`
created some unnecessary things to happen` got scolding from upline`
well` it's not scolding but teaching me the right way of handling things`
and this character of mine have been creating big mistakes and
have been repeating again and again`
and yet` there's no changes / action taken from me !
once again` i had made him felt disappointed and at the same time` furious !
if at that point of time` i am him` i will feel the same way too`
because` even me` myself couldnt take how dumb i was to keep
on repeating the same old mistakes !
Okay` what's done cannot be undone !
learn from it and get over it`
HUANG YUQING ! you are the one who's going to overcome the problem/situation and not the problem/situation overcomes you !`understand !?!
what im thinking now is` im still far away compare with others`
im stuck in the middle of young teenagers behavior and adults behavior`
i can be childish at times and mature at times when it comes to circumstances`
but this is not what i want ! upline was right`
i dont even know what i really wants and dont even understand myself
for being ME for the past 18 years of life !
and well` maybe i bother too much on people's view on me`
it's time to stop thinking what their views as they are busy
with their own stuff` they dint have the time to bother you`
so why should i made myself think so much ! humph..
GO REFLECT PLEASE !
for now` what i want is just Jesus Christ alone !
i want to draw nearer to him and listen to God's word and obey it
with faith and patience !
and whatever it's going to be now` i rebuke those negative thoughts and the devil in me in Jesus mighty name ! amen*
what's done is done` moreover` everything is over`
no point feeling sad about it !
Huang Yuqing` here's your last chance given !
treasure it and learn from it ` no more chances shall be given !

2009-10-24T23:40:00.003+08:00

today`it's a day to remember as`
i had baptised and submitted myself to GOD !
the baptism was held at lighthouse tampiness in the afternoon`
it was a enjoyable moment for all of us` i swear
because we are all together with Jesus Christ`
we rose again from water and He rose again from death`
it was like` we are together with him` clinging on him !
even though` it isnt the same way of doings` we doesnt have to go
through death for being baptised but we went through water baptism
to cleanse our sin and gave us a brand new life`soul and spirit that are in us !
i thanks god for His great mercy`love and grace for us !
i can feel that He's around whenever im worshipping Him`
He's giving everyone of us the BEST`
He knows the needs that we really needed !
if your prayer is not being answered` dont be disappointed because
He` as our mighty GOD` knows what to give us out of the BEST we really needed`
but still` continue to pray for miracles because`
the result of what you are praying for is going progressively and not immediately !
believe it with faith and do it with obedience and patience !
from here` you will see yourself doing things smoothly and you`yourself are
growing and become more mature before you realised !
THANKS GOD ! amen*

Matthew 8 : 13
" It will be done just as you believed it would "

Matthew 7 : 7
" Ask and it will be given to you ; seek and you will find ; knock and the door will be opened to you "

so what are you people waiting for ?
ASK ` SEEK `KNOCK !
and the door is there for you ! =)

time now is 2.16am`
and yet` im still here blogging`
as i need to wake up at 8.30am for preparation to church tomorrow`
i can say that the past few days` my body was in a low-batt status`haha!
but of course` it's past few days so not now okay` LOL
after today baptism at tampiness` i felt that my body was recharged
and the tiredness in me was gone` i felt awake/energetic right after that`
thanks to god` i received peace and fresh ! thanks god ! amen*

JOYCE & JINHUI :
i had hired the both of you in my cafe world -facebook- ` haha !
because we hardly have the chance to gather up like last time in the real world`
so i decided to 'gather' ourselves in the game world ! LOL! =P
and yes` O Level is drawing nearer` and i know the both of you
are mugging very hard` but still` please remember to let your body and mind
to have some rest ! JIAYOU for all the upcoming exams !
i believed in the both of you ! STUDY HARD !
70% comes with knowledge and the things you had learned`
30% comes with luck`when luck comes` are you well prepared ? =)
JIAYOU !!

STEVANIUS SIMON :
damn irritating you ! hahaha ! just kidding !
thanks for always being there to accompany me whenever im bored`
deeply appreciated` thankyou friend`
no regrets for knowing you` but hey` warn you`
dont keep watching soccer till late night`
it's time to study for a bit since your exams is coming in 1 month time ! =)
idiot` damn long dint see you ! haha !

2009-10-22T00:20:00.003+08:00

i have not been updating my blog for a month !
wooh`break record ! haha`
well` it's not something to be proud of`so do i seem to be happy ?
haha` weirdo !

well` life is doing great for me`
our mighty god had done his part and now`
it's time to do my part too !
do it with FAITH + OBEDIENCE + PATIENCE !
and you will see that you are getting things moving and at the
same time` you will see yourself growing up at stages !
is a way to improvement and by god's grace !
way to go for the success journey ! =)

this coming saturday` 24th October 2009`
im going to be baptised on this date !
and i cant wait to serve HIM more and by his grace !
thanks Jesus Christ for being here ! amen*

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2009-09-21T23:15:00.004+08:00

THROUGH WORK ACHIEVE SUCCESS !

if you dint work things out` how will you achieve success ?
if you dint do what is suppose to be` how would success draw nearer ?
doesnt it make sense to it ?
i seriously agreed` how would success draw nearer for those people
who is lazy ? or did something which is not suppose to be done ?
for example`doing things which is totally different as it's being mentioned ?
WHY ?! why people just cant follow instructions or what is being said / told ?
seriosuly` i cant understand but well` it's not in my list of concern`
so why bother ? well` huang yuqing !
FOUCUS ON : 30 CUSTOMERS FIRST ! =D
jiayou.jiayou.jiayou ! =)

bytheway` im going to change my bedroom to a home based facial business !
im doing planning now ! cant wait to see the outcome of it ! =D
can someone tells me` what colours is more to relaxing feeling ? haha !
alright` im going to get busy now !
goodbye ! =D

THANKS GOD FOR EVERYTHING ! amen*
with faith` i believe i can and i will success !

2009-09-13T00:55:00.003+08:00

im going to wake up at 6.45am and yet im still not asleep !
will be attending church service at 9am instead of 11am`
as we are having training at company and it starts at 11am !
and so` we are meeting at 8am` admiratly for breakfast !

im exhausted with my financial problem`
i wont let this continue`
i reject this financial problem in jesus mighty name !
i rebuke it ! amen !

MATTHEW 7 : 7-8

'ask and it will be given to you ; seek and you will find ;
knock and the door will be opened to you.
for everyone who asks receives ; he who seek finds ;
and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. '

im in loved with this quote from bible`
and yes` im asking and praying with faith`
i believe god will give me / provide me with all types of good news
progressively and NOT immediately !
you will only move on / grow up when you learned from mistakes !

ROMANS 11 : 3

' do not think of yourself more highly than you ought,
but rather think of yourself with sober judgement '

anyway` life have been pretty well for me`
because our mighty god` jesus` had given me a lot of
exciting cases to follow up and its me who needs to think of
solving the problems one by one` because every case got different
kinds of ways to handle` so i've to see which method is suitable to use
for different types of case` thanks god for giving me the customers`
and now` its my show time ! hahaha ! thanks god ! amen* =)
well` time now is 1.33am !
i need to head off to my dream land ! goodnight !

300 CUSTOMERS NETWORK AND LEVEL 1 BUSINESS
PARTNERS BY END OF DECEMBER 2009 ! yesh~ i believed it can be achieved !

WITH FAITH` I BELIEVED ! =D

2009-08-30T02:59:00.002+08:00

in hours time`im meeting jinhui to go back to AES !
for teacher's day celebration ! and of course` the
another main purpose is MEE SOTO ! =D
i miss the school`the class` the field`the training court`
the gym room` everywhere ! and i miss the food too !!
really had a lot of memories flashing back just a moment ago`
well` finally i can get to see some of the teachers` if they're
happen to be around in hours time ! =D

alot of things still left undone !
everything is not oriented !
well` im going to get busy with my client profile now !
goodbye and nights everyone ! =)

CONTRACT ENDS !
IM FREE ! FINALLY !
FREEDOM FREEDOM FREEDOM !

2009-08-06T22:40:00.006+08:00

okay` havent been updating for long`
so what if i update my blog ?
there's no one visiting too` so why bother ?
so i told myself that i dont have to keep updating my blog !
i will still update but not that much anymore ?
alright` once a week will do ? haha`okayokay` shall depends !

joyce's birthday is coming and she suggested to go club !?!
joyce` since in your msn nick` you wrote ' I HATE BIRTHDAY '
then shall we meet up for a simple dinner instead ? haha`

my contract at feb29 is ending soon !
end of august ! which left 27 days !
i felt happy because` finally i can have full concentration on my facial etc
on the other side` i cant bear to leave my colleagues !
especially these people` grace`shianne`poy`peishi`wenting` and
of course` my boss` but his father` uncle daniel ! *evil laugh*
everyone is a real joker` i really enjoy working with them ! =)
they will be missed once i left ! =)
and i had worked at feb29 for 1 year 2 months already ! haha`

the journey i had been through is making me stronger and`
drawing me nearer to the door of success` and i shall thanks god for
delivering me away from the lies and temptation of the devils created`
thanks god for protecting me all the way and letting me to have confident
in whatever im doing ! thankyou god` thankyou jesus !
you are the one im going to follow forever ! amen*

DO MORE THAN EXPECTED IN YOU AND YOU WILL BE

REWARDED MORE THAN YOU RECEIVED !

2009-07-09T03:26:00.008+08:00

insomnia again !
worked full shift yesterday ! -wednesday-
its totally a tiring day for me ! but after working`
i went jogging with my sister ! haha !

MORNING- cleaned up the keyboards` plucked every letters out
for cleaning` serving some customers` replenish stocks`

NIGHT- cleaned up every area of the shelf`
polished all the section of bycast and full leather bags !
used almost 4 hours to clean and polish bags at night !
the customers walking in and out`
its really countable through out the whole day ! =/
im really tired but i just cant fall asleep !
god` save me !

polishing the bag ! =)

NEAT ?!

2009-07-04T03:06:00.008+08:00

time now is 3.06am ! and yet im still awake !
i have been feeling so uncomfortable nowadays`
and i should have enough sleep but yet`sigh`
i couldnt fall asleep ! insomnia again ! =(
LUCKY ` im not working later ! wooh`

friday which was just few hours ago`
i worked full shift ! morning worked alone and
night worked with ah poy ! =D
had a great talk and fun with her` time passed so fast ! like it. =)
BUT` during the morning shift` i LOST one leather pouch ! =(
and its the guy who stole quite a number of things !
it was really my fault because i was doing my own things and
didnt notice that ! im so sorry about it`
but what i want to say is` i know i left with a few months to go`
to be exact` about another 2 months plus ?
im really trying my best to boost up the sales`
serving every customers` trying to smile every now and then`
and of course` trying to do all the things nicely for you`BUT
not like what you had mentioned` leaving a few more months and
hacking care all these` i was really so upset after hearing this`
and im not hacking care like what you mentioned !
whatever the things is going to be `conclusion is :
I LOST A LEATHER POUCH - paying for it. $78.90 !
its all my fault for not paying attention and was doing my own things !

well` like what i said`
devil` although this happened so sudden and i have to pay for the
pouch but it wont affect me much as i wont let you take control of
my emotional ! god will bless me with good news` and
protecting me against you ! thanks father ! amen*

bytheway` here's my current hairstyle`
its really a normal one ! =)
i apologised for the blur pictures !

2009-07-01T22:19:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO JINHUI ! =)

im done with it ! silver club now ! yeahh ! =D
had an enjoyable dinner with my igt family !
-steamboat at bugis- =D
target for this month : supervisor rank !
as a birthday gift for henry upline ! 要加油 ! =D
yeah !

2009-06-28T22:10:00.003+08:00

i dont think i owe anyone explanation except to jinhui alone !
i had explained everything to her`
not finding excuses but its fact !
go on calling me aeroplane` aeroplane girl ` or whoever you like`
another suggestion for me is` call me aeroplane lady instead ! =)
i only can say that` you all dont know me well enough`
as i have been repeating again and again`
to me` business and my IGT family in forever is the first priority !
yes` i know` friends are also important` further more`
she's my best friend ! i know people out there will say`
'you already said she's your BFF why dint you attend blablabla'
hello ! im sorry to mention that` my first priority always come first`
bytheway` jinhui` im sorry once again !

im after something concrete and real` i want success`and

im making things happen !

ohmygod ! another 2.5 cc for tomorrow !
LAST DAY OF THE MONTH ! jiayou jiayou jiayou !

2009-06-24T23:54:00.001+08:00

hey devil`so you think creating all this will make my
emotion went down ?! well` a big NO for you ! =)
what had happened this two days` doesnt affect me much ! =D
if i couldnt overcome this` how am i going to be success in FOREVER ?
and well` i rejected it in the name of jesus christ !
thanks jesus for protecting me all the way` amen*

this is going to be a difficult period till 22nd july`
so alot of BAD things will be coming towards everyone of us`
but i believed that` in the same time` there will be alot of
GOOD news compared to BAD news too ! because
jesus is protecting us by giving us good news ! =)
so devil` get back to your **** !
my mind and determination wont be affected by you ! =D
my mighty god` heavenly father will bless me with everything he can !
thankyou father ! amen* =)

photos will be updated when i get the cable from poy`
borrowing her cable on friday ! thankyou poy ! =D
ohmygod` i need to cut down my food intake !
lets have ultra+honey everyday then ! yummy` =P
ultra+honey = for health + weight managment !

okay` goodbye`
i want to sleep !
having insufficent sleep lately which result made me feeling
so uncomfortable ! =/
bye~

2009-06-21T23:32:00.001+08:00

thanks god` i know you are there`
attended today's church` although jesus sent someone to speak to us`
but i still feel that he's talking to me and answering my questions which i have been searching for all this while` thanks father ! you are the light of my life ! amen`

Matthew 5:14-16 Jesus taught His disciples
" You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven. "

how are you going to give light to someone or lighten up the path to someone when you are still in the dark/mist ? you cant even light your path perfectly and how are you going to light up other lifes ? -journey to success- its time to let your light shine !

2009-06-19T00:41:00.004+08:00

look at the timing again and yet im still not asleep !
feeling tired but i just cant get to sleep ?!
i apologised for not updating any photos yet !
because i lost my cable ! =( im so sorry !

everything seems to be screwed up !
is devil making me as his target now ?! ohgosh`its disgusting !
and i rejected it in the name of jesus christ !
like i mentioned` your eyes will turn red in colour and slowly`
slowly` it will get burned if you keep looking at me again !
i believe in my mighty god`jesus ! i believe he's lighting up my path to
the journey of success ! and now i feel like im getting nearer
and nearer to the door of success ! i cant wait !
my dream of being senior manager and achieving US rally !
ohmygod`ohmygod ! i must continue to strive harder !
BUT wait ` before the dream` i must hit my aim`
before senior manager` of course` I MUST AIM FOR MANAGER !
so manager shall be the goal for me now ! YES ! strive hard !
i know i can do it and do it better ! thats me ! =D

the journey that i walked through was so priceless and
memorable to me` i can sense that i had made an improvement
even though its not alot but at least` i can sense something !
heard from daniel that upline mentioned that i had made a little
bit of improvement` although its just a sentence but it made me
feel so-happy-yet-so-high ! i really got to thanks henry upline and
daniel for accompanied me walking through all difficulties and
the growing process` thankyou ! =)

alot of people mentioned that` MLM isnt suitable for me` i dont like to
work as this`no money can be earned and so on !
hello` what is all this shit coming from ?
your backside ?! oh`maybe some will say` of course`
if not come out from mouth ? well` and i will jolly well say` YES ! you are !
because you dont even think before you talk` so you are just saying
rubbish out from your mouth and its equal to` BULLSHIT !
hello` you dint even try out` how you know you are not suitable ?!
and yes` even if you are suitable` so what ?
even suitable people will failure because when time goes by they dont even have dream to achieve and the determination for achieving what they want ?!
i dont care you are suitable or not suitable` i just know that you dint even give yourself a chance to know more about this business and you dint even try it out` so stop telling me that` aiya` i cant do this` i dont like etc`and i would like to mention` dont ever look down on MLM ! one MLM company is bad doesnt mean it apply to all MLM companies ! and hello` do you know that the riches people is also doing sales ?! use your bird brain and think !
friends ? lol` what is friend ? yes` friends will be at your side when you faced any difficulties and they will stand by with you to face problem together` yes i agreed but now` another word for me to declare as friend is also` support from mouth instead of action ! woo` im so sorry for the words im using but seriously` this is how i feel` when you know your friend is working in MLM company and you poured cold water to him/her instead of encouraging` haha ! what kind of friends are you` and sorry if its for me` i will just jolly well` stated in my hi'bye friend lists then ! seriously speaking` i have been working for quite awhile and there's not a single friend buying products from me ?! HAHAHA! what is this ? support ? words come out from mouth ? well` all i know is` hearing is packing and seeing is believing ! thats all ! friends ? dont make me laugh again ! i apologised if you feel uncomfortable after reading this` but well` im not refering to anyone of you people out there` just a simple thought that went through my mind` there's no other meaning or intention for this entry` i sincerely apologised if you feel ..... ` sorry !

2009-06-15T23:47:00.006+08:00

today`went to have dinner -steamboat- with IGT family at bugis ! =D
had enjoyed ourselves over there`
had some discussion and was talking about star cruise etc`
jokes + planning + sharing = FUN !
as what i can say is` there's no one else will be chatting with you
about how are you going to be when you succeed and the amount
that you are earning etc` and the time that we had went through
all the hardship by standing side to side with one another !
its all the past experience and hardship that counts`
its so memorable even if im looking back now`
because everyone of us is putting our very best effort and time
to bulid up our career and we arent giving up so easily !
and yes` i want to go to star cruise on july !
i want to earn the amount to treat henry upline as well ! and
this prove that`my earning is stable enough to treat ! =D
JIAYOU ! believe !

learned alot from daniel these few days`
has been meeting him up at night to chat about our business`
and what we can improve on it` some new ideas and so on`
and yes` new ideas was out to be more clarified on certain things`
well`im glad that im having him as a upline and years of friendship !

ohya` bytheway` just to keep you people updated`
i went to have a haircut 3 days ago at twister -jurong point- ! =P
after haircut` alot of people mentioned that` i looked
more lively` approachable` friendly etc etc`
and well` are you people trying to say that last time`
i looked so dead and unfriendly etc ? HAHA !
okay` never mind` most importantly is that`
i like my hairstyle although its common but i dislike my fringe !
will be uploading pictures tomorrow =)

time is running late` i dont wish to be late again !
time check - 2.05AM ! ohgosh` i took so long to blog !
haha` but well` in between i went to look for star cruise photos !
okay`bye! goodnight !

i'll devote time and attention to uncovering my

mission in life.

2009-06-08T20:39:00.002+08:00

out of sudden` i suddenly felt that`
im totally useless and lost ! HOW ?! =(
there's quite a number of good news for everyone`
except me` me` ME ! im the one who doesnt have any
good news for last week ! how saddening can it be ? ='(
but well` i know i had tried my best`
just that` there's isnt any outcome yet !
so` i must stay positive everytime ! =D ` yeah. =)
the time isnt here yet`LOL` i must think this way ! =P
HUANG YUQING ! JIAYOU !
不到黄河心不死 ! =D
definition -not stop until one reaches one's goal;
refuse to give up until all hope is gone
well` im still having high hopes on myself ! =P
and there's no such word as "GIVE UP" in my dictionary ! =D
我`黃玉清` 不服输 ! 謝謝 ! =D

anyway` for those people who dont know me well`
you can jolly well stop judging me with your own views as
i already mentioned` you dont know me well !
but luckily` i will surely have a "protection screen" towards anyone!
even towards few years of friendship`=)
its good to protect ourselves` dont you think so ? =)
what i can say is` only jinhui` more than 10years of friendships`
truly knows me ?! jinhui` am i correct to say this ? hahaha !
well` conclusion is that` dont ever judge me with your own thinking !
thankyou ! =D

2009-06-06T16:36:00.004+08:00

yesterday` i lost my phone !
but luckily` i found it back ! thanks god !
here's the story !
meet daniel at 10pm` chit chatted for 30mins`
and headed to bangkit`shop and save to get tibits ! =D
walked from the mos there and when reached traffic light`
saw jinhui and pohwei` so the 4 of us` went to block downstairs
continue to chit chatting` around 11pm plus`
when we were about to go` i checked my pocket !
and my phone wasnt inside ! i was super panic !!
they tried to help me look for phone too` then jinhui and pohwei went off`
daniel accompanied me to find my phone` i ran back to the place where
i meet up with daniel but DONT HAVE ! so walked back the same
route to find my phone ! and thanks god ! i found it !
to be specific` daniel found it ! haha !
and so` i received 'scolding' from him about my careless-ness again !

at that point of time` my mind was awake and so`
i keep asking myself questions!
what if i really cant find back my phone ?!
my customers contacts and all the information and motivation
messages that upline had sent me ?! and from here`
i realised that why everytime i must be panic when things isnt
going to be the way it should be ? -im not talking about phone now-
why can i stand firmly to solve problems first and
see whats going to happen ?! WHY ?!
its time for me to change` change change alright !
yuqing` jiayou ! =D

2009-06-05T02:44:00.000+08:00

im right here blogging at this timing again`
things is getting from bad to worse`but
i believe that it will have a good outcome soon ! the law of attraction =D`
my whole body is aching` stomach is bloated`
doesnt have enough rest which caused me feeling so uncomfortable`
insufficient rest = vomit ` which i feel like doing so now !

im fatigued !
although i find it tired` but at the same time i find it worthwhile !
because i know im achieving something by hardship and not by luck !
i believe in myself =)`
just a few hours ago` i encountered some really stupid stuff i can say`
i found it totally so childish that i couldnt stand it too` and now`
i finally had a clear mindset of being D25 -of age 25 - `

and yes` laziness please get the hell out of me !
im finding myself so lazy once i reached home !
im trying real hard to kick of the habit being lazy !!
and yes`im going to kick off soon` as now` everytime when
im at home` i will be watching discs given by henry upline`
to brush up my product knowledge etc ! twist`
im feel so proud of myself ! =D

anyway`im sorry to say that`
i havent decide whether should i change a new hairstyle yet`
still in confusion because` im currently wish to grow long hair and until
then`there will be lot of hairstyle i can think of ! =) but`
i cannot stand the influence to cut my hair !
okay` i know``im fickle minded`
shall wait until 12th june and see whats the final answer ! =/

before i end my entry`
I INJURED MY BACK RECENTLY ! ='(
injuries : both wrist and ankle` right knee` and back -new injuries- !

champions are made from something they have deep inside them`
- a desire`a dream`a vision -
with a desire` a dream` a vision` you can create success !
by tom and jacqueline upline - malaysia and brunei top distributor -

and i totally believe and agreed to it`
yuqing` jiayou !
thanks lord for giving me a helping hand whenever i needs you !
thankyou father ! =)

okay`time is getting late` head off to bed now`
bye !

2009-06-04T19:36:00.004+08:00

supposed to go out after work` but ended up at home !
and there's no one at home ! -.-'
im hungry and there's no food for me ! =(
okay then` shall skip my dinner` haha
bytheway` i reached work place at 11.15 AM today !
recently i have been showing up late for work ! uh-oh`
scolding will be coming soon when boss is back from re-service` =p

now : following-up cases !

photo chips shall become/replace my proper meal ! =/
sound so pity` haha

its time to disgust you people already ! hehehe`

2009-06-04T02:06:00.002+08:00

im working tomorrow which means` in a few hours time !
and yet at this timing` im right here blogging ! humphh`
my toe nail dropped again ! =/
im going to upload the pictures which i had taken yesterday`
to make you people feel disgusted ! evil smile`=)
upload when im returned from work since tomorrow i have no appointment`
so i have to stay at home to brush up my knowledge ! =D

i felt the pain is getting worse on both of my wrist each day !
im enduring and tolerating the pain` and the most funny part is`
i dont even know` why and how i injured both my wrist ! HAHA~
should i go to find the chinese doctor ?!
its making me to keep on deciding whether should i or shoud i not`
because there's isnt any sign of recovering !?! take my ankle for example !
currently `im making myself to have bad decision ! idiot.
okay`shall stop thinking about this and if i feel the pain again` i will go !
problem solved ! yeah. =)

finally`i decided to cut my hair !
hairstyle which can brings out my confident and somehow like business lady ?
but im somewhat scare that` it will turn out to be` a big NO for me ?
but still` no choice` my current hairstyle had followed me for years`
i bet everyone thinks that i should change to a new one ! yes`alot of them!
i shall stop thinking about the hairstyle which i want` because
it will ended up looking the same as now` waste money and yet no changes ?
LOL` no way ! so shall let the hairstylist to decide ` =)
and well` if possible i will cut it by the end of this week` if not` next week !
okay` time is running late ! 2am now`
and i shall finish my stuff and head to bed !
if not` in a few hours time` there will be a zombie working at jurong point`
new building` level one` #01-29 ! HAHAHA`
goodnights ! stay tune for the pictures that will disgust you all ! =P
bye !

AIM : 5 groups of customers by the end of this month !

thanks jesus`for lighting up the path of my life towards success!
thankyou for alot of things that you had given me ! =D

2009-06-01T21:13:00.010+08:00

poy and joan reached work place early today !
one reached at 4.10pm` another one reached at 4.15pm ! =)
thanks for their accompany which kills the time much faster !
and we even took photos !! dont worry`i will be posting up ! =D
finally` i have the time to do some uploading of pictures ! =X
woo` first day of june ! which mean new month = new start !
and all of us -IGT- is working towards our planning !
now` two months for module 1 `=)` sound like studying ?
haha` nope` we are not ! so dont worry !
its the first step to success ! =D
okayokay` im going to do my things now` and im meeting jinhui at 10pm
for jogging `meeting daniel at 11pm !
today` they went malaysia ! =(
too bad` i cant follow ! need to work ! =((
enjoy the pictures ! =P

POY & ME ! =D

POY WAS BULLYING ME ! EVIDENCE !

ME & JOAN !
know each other for only 2 days and yet we talked and behaved that we known each other for years ! hahahaa !

WE WERE TRYING HARD TO STOP POY FROM RUNNING !

2009-05-31T23:49:00.007+08:00

people change over time, and unfortunately they don't always grow in the same direction. accept who this person is becoming, but don't keep them in your life if they make you feel bad or bring out your insecurities. friendships are elective relationships, they do not always have to be lifelong commitments. there is nothing wrong with moving on so you both can be happy.

had insufficient sleep`=( `attended church and today is all about prayer
instead of the 7 trumpets by pastor rony ! =(
went to fuchun kfc to have our meeting/discussion !
life is like a game` and my game is getting more and more exciting ! =D
i couldnt wait for the day to success ! but first` in order to success`
i must do the things that can help me success !

老天爺都在点算我们做的多不多` 当你觉得你离成功遥远时` 就代

表你做的不够多! 所以`要成功就必须做多` 不要想太多`去做就对

了! 可是` 不要去做会让你输的事` 种点是`赢!

- no matter how right or how wrong you say` the end result is the main point-

2009-05-31T02:49:00.002+08:00

time check - 2.49 AM !
just done checking all the information`
im very tired after spending so long over here and`
im going to wake up later at 9 am to attend church ! but`
i decided to come here to have a quick update ! =D

okay` summary of saturday until just now` =)
- went to work as usual` worked with joan`
- chatted with her about facial stuff etc`
- she might be coming with wenting on wednesday
as she's busy with her wedding stuff` so cant blame and congrats to her ! =)
- went to find ah po from 4pm to 7pm`
- chatted alot on aloe vera and all the testimonial ! =D
- will be finding them again after my church for product demo ! =D
- reached home and went to find jinhui and her cousin straight to give the
information to jinhui's cousin` - aloe body toning kit - =)
- search for some information and went to meet mr daniel liao at bangkit ! =)
- chatted alot and learned from him again` from 9pm plus to near 12am`
- continued with my research and meet jinhui at house
downstairs to do some catching up` chatted for about 1 hour plus ! =)
- and so here am i ` =P

so thats for the day`
after hearing and learned alot of things`
i must become a mindset of age 25 ! mature !!
no longer seeing myself as 18 ! mindset of 18 is childish mindset in forever !
now i know why cant many people succeed in forever`
its simply because their thinking is so childish !
in order to succeed` first` changing of mindset ! =)
talk and do like what a person at age 25 does ! jiayou` i can do it ! =)

MY DREAM : SENIOR MANAGER ! ACHIEVE US RALLY !
LOCAL TRIP ! MONTHLY INCOME $5000 AND ABOVE !
EVERY MONTH PERSONAL CASE CREDITS - 16.08 ! YEAH! =D

HOW : >3 DOWNLINES + 10 GROUP OF CUSTOMERS
-1 group of customers = 6 people -
before end of june` must have at least 5 group first and 3 downlines !

hahaha` im so hyper right now talking about all these !
because it can be achieved ! as now we are working towards this planning !
the meeting and discussion everytime is making it so unforgettable ! =)
the time that we spent is so priceless ! and yes` yuqing` jiayou ! =D
okayokay` im going to get my things prepared and get to sleep !
bye !

thanks lord that you are always at my side`
accompany me to walk through every difficulties that i had encounter`
thanks for lighting me the way to solve every problems`
thank you lord` thank you jesus ! amen

2009-05-27T01:21:00.003+08:00

recently things had been getting tougher for me`
but of course` all these wont affect me much as i am`
HUANG YUQING` NG GEOK CHENG !
a person who will breakthrough all difficulties` yeah. thats me =D
devil is always at my side mumbling all sort of things`
but well` i rejected it in the name of Jesus Christ !
if devil is/are looking at me right now`their eyes will be burning like fire !
im not going to step out from the protection of lord`
he's the one helping me and direct me to the right path of life !
a commitment to completion is born out of conviction`
and i believe it ! amen*

i finally know what lies within my character that will cause me
to be unsuccessful in building up my network base`which is` careless !
in chinese` 粗心或` 不在意或 ` 大意 !
this bad character of mine is going to change from now !
and being able to speak firmly and confidently again !
i dont understand why` i cant speak as confident compared in secondary school days ! there's surely have a reason for every single thing to happen`
and now` im searching for the answer !

2009-05-20T23:20:00.004+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE ! im back from cambodia` =D
came back yesterday but i didnt have enough time
to come online to blog as i was busy with things when
i reached home and of course` went to have a small
belated birthday celebration for huiqun ! and had few
hours of meetings/discussion ! =)`

this trip to cambodia made me realised and learned alot`
now is not the earning issues over there` but is the experience
that counts` which i encounter when days goes by`
the most unforgettable sentences which i learned are`
' dont give up the priceless things because of the worthless things '
' relationship is not about feeling and its the commitment that counts` a FEELING for a thing/person wont last long and will lead you to nowhere but commitment will make a thing/person to stay because 你有付出过 '
there's still alot of things but i just in love with this sentences` haha!
okay` i shall stop my entry now` time is running late`
as im having work tomorrow` will do a quick update tomorrow
when im done with my stuff ! goodbye and nights everyone ! =D
last but not least`

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO HUIQUN ! =D

2009-04-21T23:57:00.002+08:00

im finally here posting up some entry! =)
days passed` so many things have yet to be completed !
i still left 5 days to complete my 5 case credits !
-to the date i set for myself- date due : 27th april -
oh` my holy father` please bless me ! amen`

i apologise again for not posting up any photos`
because im really lazy ! sorry !
i think there's nothing more to update !
goodbye! oh` bytheway` i want to meet my girlfriends ! =D

im afraid to meet a guy like him again !
no confidents`

2009-04-14T07:41:00.003+08:00

GOOD MORNING ! =)
yesterday fell asleep at 9pm plus and slept all the way till 7am !
this shows how tired am i ? haha.
i forgotten to call my customers ! damn it.
i was supposed to call one at 10pm` another one at 1030pm !
and yet` i forgot about it and went to my dream land ! idiot.

bytheway` i dont know what my boss wants !
quarrelled again few days back`
since then` he didnt let me know about the stuff
which im still in confusion !
so am i terminating myself or he's terminating me ?
just a yes or no`whether am i still working when im back from cambodia !
although it was my fault at first but im still pissed off at him over this stuff`
couldnt he just let me know the answer asap ?! idiot.

okay` i shall stop mentioning this to make myself piss off `
and time now is 7.58am` im going to pack my stuff`
before i go and prepare for my work`
photos will be uploaded when i have more free time !
sorry and goodbye !

2009-04-12T15:25:00.004+08:00

firstly let me wish my sister a happy belated birthday! =)
HUANG YU LUAN ! HAPPY BELATED 20th BIRTHDAY TO YOU! =)
yesterday went sentosa with jasmine ! =D
it was a great day to spend our time under the sun !
the sun was really great ! not really got tanned but i love the result !
because its not too dark and not too ___ -fill in the blank- =P
went back home and celebrated my sister's birthday`
photos will be posting up soon` stay tuned =D`

okay` this week is enough for leisure and its time to get serious !
currently i still left about 4cc to complete within this month`so`
more health check up appointment is going to be made
before they are returning back`and yes`
i have an idea for the health check up stuff`
will seek for their comments when they return` =)
its time to follow up ! =D

oh dear` i want to watch KNOWING !
im so interested in this movie !
im so looking forward to watch this show with my sisters ! =)

2009-04-10T08:43:00.002+08:00

GOOD MORNING EVERYONE ! =D
just came back from jogging =)`
decided to come to blog first before bathing ! =P
ohmy` i didnt get to sleep at all because`
yesterday when i returned home at 9pm plus`
i slacked until 12am and went to meet jasmine at 213`
chit chatted and went up to andrew's house`
played poker for awhile` and home sweet home at 330am !
watched show etc and went jogging with sis ! =D
wooh` finally sweat ! feeling much better after jogging ! =)
im hyper now but im still tired ? haha.
well` i cant sleep whereas im going over to josephine's upline house
to learn makeup ! =) okay. i know im a noob to it. so what ? =)
reaching her house before 12pm` as the kids will be having their nap`=)
wellwellwell` entry stop here!
smelly now! haha. byebye =)

2009-04-06T05:14:00.003+08:00

ohgod` time now is 5.10am !
im working in few hours time`and yet im still awake !
im going to be zombie in another hours or so ! haha`
okay` i shall keep doing my things which was left undone`
byebye ! =)

2009-04-05T17:40:00.002+08:00

i fell asleep at this morning 5am plus !
and woke up at 3pm plus to 4pm ! =)
i had sufficient sleep but i still feel tired ! =/

both me and jinhui now`are really bored !
we were deciding where to play and what to play`
i feel like playing ball while she feel like playing badminton`-.-'
asked pohwei they all` and replies was` dont know leh`lazy !
oh what a great answer` and now conclusion`
DONT GO ANYWHERE AND ROT AT HOME ! fuck.

actually today` im meeting lynn to kaifa`BUT
i slept till 3pm plus and she's not free after 530pm`so`
NO TIME for us to kaifa ! further more`
we dint even planned what to do etc last night !
called customers just now` and phone wasnt picked up !
i shall try calling again later ! =)
never give up attitude ! yeah.

2009-04-04T23:52:00.002+08:00

they went to cambodia again !
they will be back in 2 weeks time ! so`
for this 2 weeks` i must have results on it`
must achieve supervisor rank before the end of this month !
i dont want to go to cambodia with just a assistant supervisor rank !
thats embarrassing if it really happen !
so no matter what` just fight and achieve it ! =D
jiayou`jiayou` jiayou !!

oh dear` i have been sleeping rather late these few days !
4am to 5am will be my sleeping time`no matter how tired i am !
well`yesterday midnight do some catching up with jasmine` =)
met her 130am at bangkit ? lol` we bought tibits and drinks`
sat at one place to start chit-chatting till 4am ? HAHAH`
i injured my right knee ! >=(
me and jasmine went to those fitness corner and`
we saw new facilities` so we tried it out ! BUT` idiot`
who knows that the facilities can cause my knee injure ! argh`

bytheway` i had settled the things between me and my boss ?
haiya` so called settled ? since he also stop mentioning anything ?
and we talked as per normal today` disturbing each other etc` =)
felt better after things had sort out ! yeah.
all the good things are happening around me ! twist.
god blessed` =D

thanks lynn for helping me to do facial just now` =)
she absorbed alot of toxin from me ! LOL`
THANK YOU LYNN TAY ! =P

GOAL : 25 customers` spend $150 each ! =D
it wont be a problem ! yeahyeahyeah. =)

2009-04-01T19:15:00.003+08:00

HAPPY APRIL FOOL ! =)

拿得起`放得下 !
我会加油的 ! =D

2009-03-30T22:55:00.005+08:00

im so pissed off with the taxi driver ! fuck.
took cab from clarke quay to marsiling with lynn`
on the way` i fell aslept` when i woke up` he's at woodlands area`
BUT he doesnt know how to get to marsiling !
and he drove at woodlands area rounds and rounds !
i felt weird so i asked the uncle where are we etc`
and he dont even know where we were ! fedup.
he even stopped and wanted to look at the street dictionary !
EVEN THOUGH I ASKED HIM TO DRIVE TO CAUSEWAY !! tmd.
although i just had to pay 22 bucks for cab fare but im still damn
pissed off because i can save even more ! fuck. - actual price was about 30 bucks-
tmd. im still so damn fed up now !

talked to him the day before yesterday`
what i know and what i should do is to really let go`
its time for me to move forward and stop thinking about the past`
i have been bluffing and not facing the fact for freaking 3 years !
and now` its the time to stop !
no matter how hard its going to be` im still trying !
give me some more time! =D
but not to bluff myself anymore` you are still the one i loved the most !

woo` anyway` i had done with my 5 case credits !!! yeah.
5 CC CLUB MEMBER - BRONZE !! =D

2009-03-28T22:36:00.005+08:00

went balling just now` leisure. opps!
firstly` headed to bpcc`
something made me felt so unhappy and so`
i left and went to 213 to ball instead !
started balling around 8pm or so ? im not very sure.

well` there's a guy` teck whye secondary` sec 3` number 11`
looked like YOU` the looks`the way he talks` the way he ball etc`
looking at him` it reminds me of the past time`
the time we spent together and all the happy memories`
but i just dont get it` why you chose to bastard me ?!
its been 3 years` why cant i just get rid of you in my mind ?
so what if people say` you are very good at balling` good controller etc`
a bastard is still a bastard ? as flirt as you can be ? haha.
even though we have not been contacting one another for 3 years`
i think you are still the same as before ?
happy memories is always in my mind` getting rid of you is hard`
all these years` i have been trying my best to hate you`
whenever my friends say about you` i will straight away`
saying a word` bastard` out from my mouth`
these years` i have been thinking why are you asking for a break up`
am i the one that were in fault or you are the one changing heart ?
everytime when i thinks of you` i always tell myself that you are a
bastard who doesnt worth me for loving you`
when we just got together` everyone`
even your friends asked me to think clearly` but i chose to TRUST you`
again and again` i dont know why am i always trusting the wrong person ?!
friends keep asking me about you` whether have i forgotten about you etc`
i always say YES straight to their face` but till now`
that teck whye secondary school boy` made me realised that`
i have been thinking of you all these years`
i always mention that i had let go of you` but the fact is` NO !
NOT AT ALL ! i still love you deeply ? haha. joke? nope.
3 years isnt too long nor too short`
you are the first one that i couldnt let go for so long` realised.
until now` i finally faced the fact of loving you deeply`
i regretted replying you ok for breakup` there's isnt any point for me to say
all this` because` you have moved on with your life while`
i chose to stay at the past`
i still love you deeply from my heart even though 3 years had passed.

2009-03-28T17:37:00.004+08:00

hello`im here to elaborate more about yesterday event`
alright` firstly` i went to work as usual `
shianne came to replace me at 3.30pm`because
i was having a serious headache as the pain was killing me and
i felt like my head is bursting anytime at anywhere ! ha.
took bus back home and have a little rest`
felt better and met up with daniel at 4.45pm` around this timing.
went causeway to shop for presents but ended up`
there's nothing for us to get it ! so` went to henry upline's house
to celebrate josephine upline and weijie's birthday` =)
we are just like a small family outside` which contains warmth and love !
i really do like this kind of feeling whenever im with them ! =)
took pictures etc` and more importantly is` the sharing of vietnam trip
by josephine upline and few photos of the cambodia trip by henry upline`=)
blowed cake` sharing from each and everyone`
before 10pm went down to coffee shop and continued the sharing etc`
got another gift from henry upline ! yeah. happyhappy XD
before 1130pm` home sweet home !

well` i learned a few things yesterday`
everyone do make mistakes` no one is prefect !
you might be good at certain things BUT you might not be good at something !
everyone start learning from their mistakes
and improve themselves to be better and better`
we should treat everyday as a practical day` when days goes by`
we are actually doing better without noticing it` yesh.
through yesterday lesson` there's really alot of thoughts for me`
TO LYNN : im sorry that i did not do my part to help you in orangising`sorry!

THE DREAM TO CAMBODIA IS FINALLY HERE ! =D
im going on MAY ! yesyesyes. =D

2009-03-28T01:27:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOSEPHINE UPLINE ! -27th march.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WEIJIE` KELVIN`ZHICHENG ! -today.

summary`
- headache was killing me ! totally.
- learned alot of new things today from everyone`
- the feeling of family warmth and love`
- GREAT DAY

shianne` owe you a billion thanks for covering my shift`
im sorry to make you felt so rushed` thanks alot ! =)

2009-03-27T01:19:00.000+08:00

finally done with this` as simple as possible !
thanks jinhui for the help ! =D
anyway` please do not let others know about this new blog`
keep it to yourself` thankyou ! sincerely appreciated` =D

im going to change my previous blog to private`
but of course`im not changing it now`
due to the reader on my previous blog`
wanting to get more infomation on jinhui`
but i will change it without you people knowing it ! =X

time files ! april is coming soon !
another target is going to be set for myself using lynn's planning ! =P
5 case credit- ( cc ) is confirmed to be done`
and its also a MUST to do it every month !
and dream to achieve US RALLY will draw nearer ! =)
YES ! i believed i can do it !
huang yuqing` will continue to strive harder and achieve her dreams ! yesh.