dangerous enemy lies within your own mind,so control it.
HER
yuqing,20
receive birthday wishes on the 6th March
basketball, family, friends and GRAYSON ANG is loved
opened singapore terminal 4&5 and has own 'aeroplane basic theory' guide book :P
the word 'happiness' means different things to different people; and as they go through the different stages of life, their definitions undergo drastic changes.
RUN AWAY
Friday, January 22, 2010, 12:47 AM
First Part of Story which i heard from daniel`and i couldnt believe my hears when i heard it`
and i was totally speechless when he told me`
i dont know who shall i listen to ? daniel or my mentor ?
both of them is harmless to me` because i know daniel for >10 years`
and my mentor for >1years`they're both good to me and teaches
me alot of things up till now ` which i totally appreciated to the max !
but now` there's something happened in between`
daniel might leave my mentor and my mentor dont seems to be bothered !
its really troubled me and to daniel too` because he have stayed at
my upline's side learning and doing things >3years`
although` all of us doesnt have kinship but at least there's some
relationship for each and everyone of us ?
well` i wont mention what exactly happened which caused such problem`but just want to rant about it and i dont feel like seeing my mentor for a sudden`
as thinking it logically` daniel was right !
Second Part`
i really feel so disappointed and down to the max when i heard
that i am just like a toy to play around`
im totally disappointed in you` i feel like i had fell on the floor/ground
real hard with injuries ! alright` im going to be awake and let go of the pain
which i had on you` i have enough of everything`
what daniel said was right` you're not worthy for me to do so much stuff on you`
what for ? as everything is just one-sided ! its enough enough enough..... :'(
and i dont think that` thats the way to prove anything !
- i really had enough of all these thing
- people says: 'bad experience once is enough'
- i got more than once
- i feel like a failure
- ending ? still the same from previous
- crying alone for ?
- im really down to the max now ! :'(
- feeling so uncomfortable
- nobody will ever know how i feel ? because they're not me` so what if they encountered such stuff before ? every situation is different and i have not stated what exactly happened`thanks and dont ever tell me`you know how i feel !
- conclusion : everything is worthless
- huang yuqing` stop crying !!! be strong be strong be strong....
future ?! my mind is still blank at the moment`
its linked from the first part` after hearing all the things from
daniel` im still wondering whether should i continue to follow my mentor`
i feel so hard to follow now ! but to think of it` my mentor treated me well too !
I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW !
look at the time now ! i need to work tomorrow and yet im still not yet asleep !
over here` ranting such stuff that nobody will actually understand !
fuck ! i dont feel like continue the post !
because whatever i says` no one will get it` so what for !